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Sorry for the long absence - The university is eating up all my free time and the constant fever about 37.6 °C (~ 99.7 F) keeps me away from the Internet at rare leisure times. (savouring audio books or sleeping seems more appealing at those evenings.)

My routine now consists of dealing with triphosgene (it's almost the same as phosgene, yeah, that one from WWI but solid at ambient temperature)  or benzene (causes cancer and a bunch of other similar pleasant diseases to almost any part of the body and mind) or chloroform (which not only makes you dizzy and tired but can also be metabolized to phosgene -you again!- or cause an cardiac arrest).

Did I already mentioned I hate lab-work?
(I know, I did. Sorry for the battology?)

the bad, the good and the Cabin Pressure :) )


"... Declaring itself the rabbit of negative euphoria."
"What?"
"Not a happy bunny..."

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I'm a bit exhausted. Liar.
To tell  the truth, I'm really dead tired. Maybe I have no stamina or it's too dark and misty outside or maybe I just hate organic synthesis and lab-practice.
Whatever.
The first master semester is the worst - it's getting better afterwards. And don't tell me otherwise, 'cause it's the only hope I have.

Shameless pimping from our university: chemistry promotion video (I personally know 90 % of those people and all of the apparatus, so for me it seems a bit awkward with that sterile, unpersonalized off-screen voice.)
It's not science, it's art (almost German, but hey, there are pretty pictures of colorful test tubes?..)

I do find it a bit unfair, all you get to see in the vid is about organic chemistry. Well, at least 95 % of the show are. The lasers and the secretary girls aren't. Does they only mentioned all the three departments (bio+organics & anorganics & physics chemistry) to better focus on one?
And why is physical chemistry so shy? Without theoretical & physical departments there won't be any test tubes experiments and nothing to show off. Sure, page-long formulas or shiny vacuum-instruments aren't so sparky as simple test tubes but... it's chemistry too. Lasers and bombs, biophysics and thermodynamics, nano-particles and tunnel-electrons, Schrödinger & Heisenberg, eigenfunctions and quantum chemistry.

Why don't we have as mighty lobby as the organics with their pharmacy industry?





P.S.: Don't get me wrong, I still like the vid and my faculty. Despite the nagging. It's just ... I wished for more physical chemistry stuff in it, because I'm starting to feel like I belong to a repressed minority group o.Ô"
It's honorable but hard.
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Autumn-mood.
Always makes me a bit melancholic and peevish. Such a beautiful time of the year, but, gosh, why is the weather so rough lately? Try riding a bike while it's raining and storming and you'll see what I mean -.-"

No, I'm not complaining, because this weekend the weather promised to play nice - while I'm visiting:
Berlin
All-you-can-see tour with my sugar cube <3 (you nickname sounds really weird in English, dearD)

Before I leave - some autumn-style & dumb Jim-Mafioso illusions, inspired by BBC Sherlock.

I'm soo changable )

P.S.: Speaking of which: There are no ex-players. Just as there are no real ex-alcoholics. Once a junkie, always a junkie.

P.P.S.: Also, I actually manged to visit my shooting club in the evening - all the grannies and granpas there are just lovely, talking about cakes, Kartoffelsalat (potato salad?) and grandkids~
(I'm getting better at the gun! The knack is to concentrate on the iron sights {Kimme & Korn} not on the aim. Oh, yeah, and holding still ...)

P.P.P.S.: I'm really ashamed by my (non-existent) participation this year but still - Team Phoenix, I'm proud of you!

Banner sponsored by talented [info]der_jemand! *_*

... And the last P.S.'s for today: (Klausuraufsicht =) Proctoring an exam is the most tedious activity you can imagine. Even correcting the test later is more fun~


Good Night & Berlin ahoy <3

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Actually, the last entry is a bit out-of-date. I started it a week ago, to be precise... but right after I wrote about the "All individuals"-vid, my Internet died and I perceived it as a Sign.

Also, the was an important change in my mood. And some fabulous thunderstorms the next few days.

And my shooting club (I've started with an air gun instead of a rifle!). And sports (that light air gun grows quite heavy in your hand after an hour of shooting -> I need some muscles ò.ó By the way, I've seen two of our Profs in the gum, as well. It's really awkward to see someone who you've only seen all buttoned-up, now wearing only a pair of shorts and a sweat soaked shirt...) And Theater (4 Rooms!). And some lazy afternoons with a book, a pumpkin backed with cheese and a glass of cold-cold milk.
Not to forget the weekend I've spent at my parents. Including a 5-hours-long walk to the sea nearby :3

Altogether, I'm starting to really enjoy my life right now. There is this one last exam, though. Like a dark cloud on the flawless blue sky... But it's at the end of September, so I decided to spend the first two weeks somewhere else :D
Means -> Starting from tomorrow I'll go on holiday!

Good-bye, my dears ♥
See you after 8th September.

P.S.:
The mystical metamorphosis from a tiered geek with dark circles around the eyes to bright and shiny Bacheloretta <3



I guess, I just needed a doctor. (Attention: Sherlock BBC & Doctor Who reference... and, damn, that idea about fem!Moriarty cosplay just wont disappear! Mycroft's to blame. Sure.)

P.P.S. In the last three weeks I've already unlearnd to use the Internet or to write proper entries. I wonder if I'll still remember my LJ-password after two more weeks aft o.O" I hope so, for there are a lot of lab photos at my cam <3

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Oh my, LJ is back?!
I've missed you, honey. Take your time to recover - I won't be around for a week or so and when I'm back I want to see you healthy and proud again <3

As for me... Working on a scientific thesis is a bit like writing a fiction story. First, you have to plot the story-line, do your research, create main characters and figure out the rules of you fiction-world, outline a schema, a plan, write some scenes down, stretch that particular scene, it's crap, you won't do this, you're too dumb, too lazy, too damn stupid for this,.. wait, there is an idea! a new one, it might work, and now another one, that's fine, that's great, I'm a fucking genius! but time, not enough time! don't panic, don't panic, don't... oh. it doesn't work with those rules, you settled first? that's a problem...

Is it just me or is it normal? XD
Well, so far I have worked on the theory-part, on intro and conclusions, and background infos about chemotaxis - the language also our braincells are whispering in while we are not listening~ When I'll start the analysis part, it'll be a lot less poetry in it. A. Lot. Less.

So, Monday next week is the deadline for the first proofreading by Prof. B., and I so far only have approximately the half of my thesis done and LaTeX is like a capricious lover - it likes to be begged. And I sometimes hate the subject, but then I love it again and, yeah, I'm a bit tired but somehow still quite enthusiastic <3 after the big depression last week.

Oh, and a day after my the deadline I have to make a presentation about my research. In English x__x"
Have I already mentioned I haven't even started yet?

Next week will be really... hm, fun?

Just smile, everyone <3





P.S.: But I somehow manged to go to sport once this week and have nearly crashed the mirror with my trainers. I have lost laces a long time ago and we had to practice some sort of Can-can...

Just wanted to warn you never to dance Can-can without shoelaces. It's dangerous.


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Cut for fancy thesis work and my typical university-talk about research, Profs and magic spells <3



click )

Speaking about freaks.
Can't wait to see the next Sherlock BBC series!
It will be hard to take the both guys serious after they announced Sherlock as Smaug, the Dragon, and John as Hobbit.. but I'll try my best not to giggle out lout. After-all, it's a crime-scene<3



(Crime-scenes can be quite obscure in real life... Once in a few years we get those book-voucher for our university-stuff and it's never enough, the books are so bloody expensive I depend on our library for my survival.  But anyway - this year I got myself one great Physical Chemistry textbook (Atkins) and for a few coins change a forensic-investigations-history book as well ♥ So far, I'm quite happy with the decision!)  

To continue with crimes and bullets and so on - I absolutely love shooting <3 It's relaxing and helps to concentrate your mind and take control of the body. It also improves your ego each time you hit the target :D (and I'm pretty good at that) Don't worry I'm speaking of paper targets - my hobby stays clean. The only damage I'm doing is to myself: sore muscles from the heavy rifle.
(And last time there was this old woman (Miss Marple? o.O") with a fancy necklet and a bright summer-dress, all sweet and nice, smiling, telling us some funny stories from the time she was still working ... and then taking her gun out of the handbag and shooting the target down. That was really some creepy old Lady. Respect!)


Well, I guess, the break is over - back to work.

Wish me inspiration for the BA-thesis, dear world :3


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Best compliment ever: "Would you like to do your master thesis in our research group as well?"

<3<3<3

But since it'll take me a few more years, in the meanwhile Prof B. offered me a job as his research assistant in the group! I'm not sure if I can manage both scientific research and studying in the next winter semester (lots of labs x_x"), but I'd love to return in the group for the next summer semester ^.^

(I can't tell you how happy I am right now - I feel honoured for my brains and and my ideas.. and nothing makes me so happy as appreciation, I'm a vain girl <3 Then again, this kind of satisfaction I also feel after writing a worthy story or making a perfect Birthday-present - it's this feeling of "I-have-created-something-new". It's an addiction, I'm afraid, like adrenalin or alcohol, when it's not there, the life seems to be all dull and boring... )

But, well, I shouldn't get too exited. First things first and I still have my bachelor thesis and a few more exams to worry about...
And, no, I won't tell you what grade I got for that damn oral examination. Was I really that bad?... Dear Me, you should really, like really start learning instead of fangirling your bachelor themes, drinking coffee with the doctorands and go shooting [but it's so relaxing!].
(I hope my Prof will never ever ask me for my official papers for I'd die of shame if he ever sees just how bad some of my grades are. Why the hell was I babbling that nonsense in the oral exam? Damn²)

As for the first attempts at image processing, I wrote a small algorithm for this transformation (not that much of a challenge and I'm still fighting against those holes in their scopes ò.ó" )
[click-able photos]

      

... and then composed  those pictures to a video, where you can only see the strokes of their outlines and how they scrabble about, merging, falling apart, pushing dead bodies around - it's kind of fascinating. The creepy kind *_*;

I'd love to show off a bit more, but I'm not sure which results I can already show in public ._." (maybe there'll be a paper afterwards ^^)
I'll talk more detailed, when I'm done? But you can read the basics about the Dicties here. And right now the experimental part is almost over (or so I hope) and I have started analysing the data. So from now on it's just maths. (for example - I never knew that a blur operation is just a matrix applied to a 2D pixel. o_o")

And something completely different before I'm falling asleep at the desk. A quote from a magazine my college lends me:
[sorry, it's German ^^"]

Titanik, S. 40

"Schule des Lebens

Gegen Ende jeder Beziehung werde ich vorwurfsvoll gefragt, warum mir denn verflixt noch mal das Zerstören so einen kindischen Spaß mache, warum sich alles immer bitteschön nur um mich zu drehen habe und warum ich so ein beschissener Egoist sei, dem die Gefühle anderer schnurzegal sind. Schließlich sei ich als Akademiker ja nicht gerade zu blöde, die Regeln des Zusammenlebens zu verstehen, und außerdem alt und erfahren genug, begangene Fehler nicht zwangshaft wiederholen zu müssen. Die Antwort lautetet: Ich trenne eben gerne Erlerntes von Privatem."
(c) Thomas Tonn

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No end to my uni babbling in sight. Sorry? (In August/September it'll be over~)

But someday I'd like to fan-girl about Firefly, does anyone from my f-list watched it? >D


(P.S.: And I need to write that Sherlock BBC / Weiß Kreuz Crossover to get it our of my system...
Time, please!)

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silly Personal massage to somewhere out there: "Whatever it was, that made your sad, my dear friend, don't you ever give up!"

(Arthur is not plugging drugs here. Or at least I hope, he's not... <3)

P.S.:

Jun. 12th, 2011 09:33 pm
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P.S.: For those who aren't interested in microscopes and my incoherent yip-yapping - there are some other pretty photos to love and cherish on an early summer evening: thaess gallery [really like his colours <3]

Also - Organic Chemistry is a very small-minded science (yay, for Physical Chemistry!), right now I'm putting away my notes from learning for the oral examination, picking up some lines here and there and, well, decide for yourself:

"The main problem for the most of the coupling reactions are the homocouplings ..."

Science doesn't have to be politically correct, but still.
And no, I didn't giggle at the examination. I was way too nervous for that.
(Ich hab nicht mal gekichert, als "Sliding Average" in der Datenanalyse-Vorlesung durch Versprechen als Gleitmittel übersetzt wurde.)

I guess for that kind of foolish notes, I shall revive my twitter instead of spamming my LJ [added the link at the side bar]
Maybe next week.
If I occasionally get rid of my current impressions, the next entry might be shorter and easier to bear, right? <3


P.².S.: When I'm lucky, next week-end we'll see that play - 4 Rooms, sounds like funny crack pretty interesting so far ^_^v


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"The thing Jayne loves about zombies is that they're easy [...]
Sure, it'd get boring if they hung around too long – the things are so slow they're like a target for bitty babies holding their very first guns – but sometimes, a man just likes kick back, relax, and shoot holes in a few heads.
"

Can you imagine a better working day then hearing this fabulous audio!fic about Firefly (space cowboys!) and Zombies and malicious politics ... and working on your bachelor thesis in an empty lab, feeling like a king of your own slightly insane empire?~
Half of my research group is on holiday, so the lab's mine to rule! *muhrhr*

If only the computer wasn't telling me in the middle of an experiment that he can't find the microscope anymore. My first thought was, that a cable was detached, so I went down on my knees searching the cable-salad for some loose connections. Half an hour and a shiny tidy floor later I was at the end of my nerves and just shut the whole damn thing down. And then... a miracle! All of sudden the program seems to recognize the microscope again... I hate that thing and it's lunatic sense of humour.
So, if only the whole adjustment wouldn't take so long - the last two weeks I was getting home about 8 p.m. and so damn hungry and tired as if I was pushing heavy rocks up some steeply mountain, the whole work could be quite ... relaxing >D
(Yeah, good bye Taekwondo! My teacher will kill me the next time he'll see me. If he ever see me again.. lucky me, the last weeks had quite a few public holidays in Germany and on those days I only stepped by in the labs for a few hours, curious about the results of the last night...)

But, well, instead of ranting, I'd rather show off a bit - I got an A+ (1,0) for my presentation! ^__^ (shiny!)

Well, I was good, I just never expected being that good. But if they insists, I sure won't complain. In fact, I was feeling rather disappointed after I finished, I had so much more to tell the auditorium, but the questions were all dull (why the hell they asked me about the construction of some boring neutron reactor if they could have seen the very long derivation of the Fourier transformation instead?)

And on Wednesday I had an oral examination in the subject I always hated the most, so I probably should have been learning the last weekend real hard.
Expect that I was visiting that Doctor!girl I met at the shooting club... It was a warm and pleasantly odd evening on her balcony with some strange medicine students [those people are really, really creepy, but funny to chat with >3) and a guy who danced tango like a professional seducer. Just perfect. Finally I found someone who's taller than me! I only hope the next time won't be in a dark hallway but on the dance floor.
(Also, he's an American, reminds me a bit of Crawford >3 are people from oversea really that tall or is it just it just me, who's so lucky?)

... and I still got over with that oral examination. I'm not sure, which grade I'll get, but I had definitely not failed - otherwise the Prof would have told me so; he's someone who really enjoys telling students they failed the topic and have to come in a few weeks to see him again.

Strangely, I don't fell overworked lately. Not too much at least.
Sure, I'm spending all my free time working on that programming stuff, or lingering in the lab, but it's still interesting and I'm feeling so alive.

Also, have found myself great colleagues. And some friends too. And that tall medicine student to dance with <3
(Damn, he was just gorgeous!)

Especially unusual is having people around, who share more than two interests of yours.
You know that one cute girl from the university I was talking about lately?
Not only I can invite her over in my office and we'll chat about Weiß Kreuz over coffee (we're both schwarz fans <3), and science, and Profs. And... the world domination? But we can also go hiking in a beautiful forest nearby or having our Sunday film-nights with lots of Sci-Fi & Sherlock and laughing, and... I never had a friend to share all the interests at once; always had to split them to three or four people to bear, so I'm a bit suspicious - the girl is way too matching me to be real. (Well, not too perfect after all - we have totally different eating habits. How on earth doesn't she like spinach and paprika and aubergine? o.o) But It's a great feeling finding a friend like this.
... Oh, and the guys at the labs are quite interesting as colleagues too - and yes, I do find that quite abnormal unusual.
(btw, except from one exchange-student from China - I'm the only girl there. Now, that's fine with me <3)

Back to my actual thesis (I know, my f-list is probably already sick and tired of hearing about amoebas and so... but I'm afraid it won't change till I'm done with this subject ^^" Can you bear with it till August?)

Wanna see some creepy, bacteria contaminated data? <3



And my cool microscope with it's golden electrode? ^.^
(the poor cam quality doesn't do him justice, I'm afraid)



a few more shiny close up's )

Just one more thing...
On Wednesday-evening I had a quite revealing conversation with some of the technical assistants from the labs. She asked me if could turned off one of the apparatus downstairs for it's her finishing time and she don't want to wait a few more hours for the machine to cool down.

me: Sure, no problem! I'll stay here till late anyway~ *sigh*
TA: As usual, um? You sure want to make the best of you. Me on the other hand... Well, I already have my house, kids and a dog, but when you want a career, you sure have to stay till late and work hard. I'd rather have my family.

Some of those old women who likes to patronized you. Fine and all. But I just can't agree with her.

Sure, I want success, and, yeah, I deserve acknowledgement (who don't?) and I sure as hell want to make a Doctor Degree afterwards, but someday I want my house as well. And a child and a partner whom I can trust (expert for the dog. I'm a cat type <3) and free time to travel around the world and going out with friends and ... is it the bitter really, that you can't have everything you want, or is it just her way to excuse herself?

Then on the other hand, I was sure willing to turn the apparatus off since I spend the last few weeks almost living there.
So may be she has a point after all.

But.
We have those two Profs in our working group. A. & B. (it's their real names shortcuts <3)
And did I ever mention how really handsome my Prof. A. is? And how absolutely sweet his wife is? She taught us Biomolecular Chemistry in the fifth semester...And how cute the two little boys of the Prof. B are?

So, yeah, they don't look like they are suffering from loneliness. I guess, I'll manage it too. Somehow.



And if not... well, my amobeas still love me <3
('cause I have the glucose which makes them happy and the caffeine which calm them down~ xD)

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stage fright
-> NOUN: Acute nervousness associated with performing or speaking before an audience.


Never thought it would affect me.
I mean, all I have to do is to stand up and explain (loud and clear) a highly complex theme in front of round hundred students and a dozen of  Professors...

And as if it's not enough, my own Prof asked me, if I can play the chairman for the first session. ("Vorsitzender" sounds even more ridiculous.)
What on earth made him think, I'm the right person for that job? Standing there, smiling, call the lecturer on the speakers desk and cut them off, when they talked over their limits. I'll need a megaphone to make myself noticeable. (can you just push somebody down if they talked too long? And how am I suppose to moderate an obligatory after-presentation discussion, if I hate public debates?)

Oh, yes, the reason why it have to be me, is that the only another person in the run had a broken nose and will be operated tomorrow noon.
(can somebody punch me please? I'll try not to fight back. Not too hard at least.)

Also, shall I wear a tie?
Or a suit?
Or just drink a big glass of valerian before it starts?

(whenever I'm nervous or dead-tiered or just feeling uncomfortable around a person - my accent gets really bad. Otherwise it's almost not present but in those cases it sounds just... gross. Strangely, it never happens when I'm drunk - I guess, it's just a cliché after all.)

Also, it's impossible to explain the basics of "X-Ray and Neutron Scattering Analysis Methods" in just a half of an hour. The theme is huge and amazing and combines quantum mechanics as well as theoretical physics - after being engaged in the theme for weeks, I can't help but love it. And now I'll have to simplify it all in some dumb overview presentation. Damn.
(It's just awesome!)

So, the week-end of doom starts tomorrow and will go till Monday, the 31th May.
My turn will be on Sunday, at 11:30 a.m.
Wish me luck <3

By the way, it also means, I have to spend the next weekend in the labs in order to catch up with my thesis plans.
It's not like I'm a workaholic or something but.
Research is not a standardized nine-to-five job: I can take myself a day free, if my amobeas suddenly die from... actually, I still don't know why it happened that day. But on the other hand... Well, for example, yesterday:

(In the following the pretty Chef-girl who was so kind to show around the lab denotes as E.)

E.: - You measurement's time starts about 6 p.m. today, okay? Now that you can work alone, the experiment should take you only a few hours.
Me: - Um, on Wednesdays I'm normally at Taekwando. .. but it's fine. Really! I can pass a training or two, bachelor thesis is sure more important than that ^_^
E:  - Oh no, dear! You shouldn't sacrifize your hobbies, those are very important for the right mental balance.
Me: *beams with joy*
E: - Now that you have a key of your own, you can open the labs anytime. So, why won't you just come back right after your training? At 8 p.m.? In fact, that would be even better, so I can try one more measurement myself, before you'll need the microscope. Deal?
Me.... yeah, right. Till 8 p.m. then.

Will it be that despicable to wish my amoebas a few more casual death', so that I can enjoy a bit of the spring?
Hm.

P.S.: to make this nervous entry looks a bit less nerdy - I've started watching Firefly and it's absolutely great. If you like SciFi or nor - just go and watch it. Now.
Reminds me strongly of Cowboy Bebob. Especially, because of their cool but somehow really creepy crew. Oh, and because of the sarcasm of the show >3

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I'm still alive. Kind of. Just a bit busy.

With stuff like:

Learning how to work in a sterilized lab. How to handle an atomic force microscopy without breaking this hideously expensive, bitching princess thing.
Not going mad at the amebae or at my stupid self for forgetting to put the lid over the gold electrode for the night. You see, the most of my measurements goes over night, so if the lid is not there, the solution, where my pets are swimming around peacefully, will vaporises after just a few hours and they will painfully suffocate... while - for the sake of the experiment (!) - they are supposed to starve to death. Um.

Learning python. One of the most simple programming language. Or so I was told. Um.
Then again, I can use the few techniques I've already learned for ImageProcessing to automatise trimming my holiday photos. If I ever have holidays again.
(by the way, in UNIX shell programming there some really elegant rules: for example, you start a command with an if and you have to end your order with an fi. Also, once a program cowardly refused to obey. And yes, I'm quoting it word-for-word. Linux is sure crazy. And fun <3)

Oh, and I've managed that double-kick from Taekwando <3 And had my first shooting without a supporting "pillar" under my gun. Never thought that rifle was so damn heavy... I mean, I really have some muscles, I've trained with shinai for some years, I've done exercises with free weights - not regularly but still... I just can't stay still enough to take accurate aim. That's annoying! Especially since with that pillar I'm really, really good. Bother!
Well, I'll have to improve then <3

Oh, and I have to find time to sleep as well.
But not before I'll take a final look at my presentation for the next weekend. My turn is next Sunday, at 11 a.m. Yes, we're are just that hardcore in Göttingen.

And that one dear fellow from my university will convince me into an audio!WK-fanfiction. Damn her and her great ideas.

As for the shadow sides.... I'm consistently tiered. Physical and somehow emotional too. And I have that troublesome feeling of achieving nothing at all. Just struggling. Struggling and getting even more exhausted. I'm quite a patient type, but this time I want to see some results. Like. NOW.
Um...

So, in order to manage that current crazy schedule a bit better, I guess, I'll have to make my internet presence even shorter ._."
Don't forget about me, dears. Because I sure won't!
I'll be back (c)
<3

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P.S. Greeting back for kuru :3

P².S: Oh, and to explain the title of the entry: whenever the things gets too stressed for me, I tend to miss the deadline for returning the books back to the city library. This time I own them exactly 13 € for being such an idiot. Come to think of it - not my worst score.


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Contrary to my previous plans I had to spend the weekend at the university, looking after my experiment which wasn't going exactly how I've expected it to go... So much for enjoying the nice weather~

All things considered the days are so frenetic lately, I'm slightly afraid, I bite off a bit more than I can chew...
Bun then again, it's spring, I'm young and the whole world is at my feet, so why the hell not?

For example I have a weak spot for all kind of weapons, but after a year full of kendo, I wanted to try out something completely different... So, at Thursday I was at an air rifle shooting - the every first time I hold a gun in my hand, not a shotgun though.
And it was an amazing feeling, staying there, holding still, full concentration and for a few seconds the world stays still ... and then - a fast sound and a tiny hole in the target. After the first attempts I hit the bull's eye quite frequently <3



... Despite my poor eyesight.
But, well, you don't have to boast 0.0 dioptres to take an accurate aim. The decisive factor is the ability to stand still. (After the first 15 shoots I had to make a pause though - to focus on a mean small point in a 10 meters distance isn't that healthy for weak eyes either.)
I'll see if my enthusiasm will hold for a few more days and if I'm as capable with small calibre guns as I'm with rifles than maybe I'll join the shooting association~ (this one: Schützenverein)

Even though, the members are all looking quite cliché-like so far. You know, so .. typical old school German. Old geezers with beer bellies, doing nothing but talking about how much better it was in the past.....
The only other Newbie was a girl of my age <3 (the new generation comes!) She studies medicine and on Wednesdays, when I have my Taekwando lessons, she's doing Boxing! I've seen her trough the glass doors of the next room in our martial arts centre~  It was quite a remarkable coincidence, meeting her there. So, afterwards we had to clink our coffee glasses at the strange twist of fate. And, gosh, we have talked till the very late hour, which is absolutely unusual for me...  I'm still a bit suspicious of fate. A few years ago I had complained, all the awesome people I know are living awful far away from me and now - there are people here, at my place, just a stone's throw away, whom I can talk to. About each and every topic I want; from SciFi and chemistry and theatre and politics to Sherlock BBC or Weiß Kreuz, or yaoi & yuri and travelling plans and crazy novel plots.
Life is quite awesome right now.
(which doesn't mean, I don't miss my far-away friends as well ._." But I've already planed to visit my dearest ones this year! ò.ó. So, Prague & Berlin are definitely included. And we'll see, if I can afford a non-European journey someday <3)

And a small university related note as well:
The computer applications lectures by my prof (my because it's his study group where I'm working at my thesis) are a bit complicated for I'm not really a computer freak, but at least the prof seems to be quite a funny fellow. Lucky me, he only looks like Dr. House (without a crutch) but his character is much nicer (and a bit awkward. Tight black jeans presents just a perfect contrast for the nasty habit of wiping the chalk from his hands on his pants. It always looks like somebody had grabbed his ass....) But I've learned a lot about python, C++, Linux & Co., so if after this evening I suddenly disappear from the Internet, it means, the experiment of changing my Windows to Linux went wrong and I occidentally killed my notebook....

Oh, and a few more photos, since you had to listen to me talking for a while now.. just lay back and click on the cut to enjoy the non-verbal photo-communication about Science Slam and the current girlish spring fashion presented by the silly Me <3


(c) ThOP
Stage @ ThOP )

~

massive self-aggrandisement <3 )
Let me act childish, I'm already terrified of how difficult the next two month' will be - I'm excited and anxious at the same time. How am I suppose to learn properly when I'm so high?~

P.S.: I shall post a few Lisbon photos within the next weeks... because one good friend pointed out to me, that when it comes to the memories of good times, even bad photos are better then none <3

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[Edit] - link fixed

Actually, I planed to relax and enjoy the time left till the university will start.. Well, it doesn't exactly turned out the way I planed.

For example - the last night I was awake, wandering through the darkness and drinking cheap coffee~
Oh no, it wasn’t a night full of party and dancing.
And nope, I wasn’t learning all the time either.
Any other suggestion?
How about: At midnight there were some fire officers knocking at my door – “You have to leave the apartment immediately:  We vacate the whole building due to a bomb disposal nearby. You can spent the time in the clinic on the corner, there is already an information stand waiting if you have any questions. Thank you.”
Everything was really well organized, I have to admit that much.

I still hope, that night will stay quite a ... unique experience.
Everything worked out well, they could defuse the bomb =)
(btw, it was an old British aircraft bomb)

And now I really need to catch up on sleep in order not to spill the bacteria solution on the aseptic clean extractor hood. (I started with my first independent research this week!! Yeah, me!)

And not to feel that sore and aching after Taekwondo, which turned out to be really fun =) It is much less a way of life then Karate was~ Oh, and you can spin around till you're dizzy >D

Also, as the true fan of our theatre I was visiting the April's play - "You can't take it with you", which was amazingly funny and somehow really wise <3 (photos from the show - German; and a link to the film, based on the play - English)

During the weekend I should have a bit more free time to ramble around LJ and answer all the interesting treads <3
Sleep well~


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 "... and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee." (c) "Meditation XVII" by John Donne. Later quoted up to famous by E. Hemingway novel.

Actually, I can't stand Hemingway, the same goes for Camus, I'm perfectly aware those are great authors, but I just don't like them.
The quote just hits the nail on the head, though.

Usually it's not my style to participate in donations or help_XYZ auctions. After all, something is always going down and one can't feel sorry for the world all the time. 
But, as naive as it may sound, I owe the Japanese culture a bunch of good friends of mine. And it's only fair to pay your debts back.
Also, I'm an egoist and when it comes to nuclear danger everyone is evolved.

So, as my 120_min collegians have already posted (you are great guys!) here you can find my writings - words. (sorry, German only =/)
And here you may bid for some photography stuff - photos. (I'm not very good in photography, sure, but it's about the good will, right?)

P.S.: While speaking about danger... The situation surely is horrifying but doesn't require everybody starting panic about the nuclear overkill right  NOW. Especially some politics here in Germany (WTF?) are overreacting.  A bit.

P.P.S.: You know you should go to sleep, when you are taking the trash out and when already staying by the trash can suddenly notice you are still holding the shoehorn in the hand.. fail >3


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Procrastination is a bad, bad thing.
The winter semester will start tomorrow and once again I have set the bar high. I can't even judge if that's realistic. But we'll see :)

And the analyse course for the next two weeks can start as well - all the analytic stuff always reminds me of my childhoods dream of working in forensic science >3

(speaking of high bars... also, I'd like to take Spanish courses, otherwise I'll forget the language completely.)




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P.S. Also, I have a little problem with my keyboard, so if I wont post a next few days... Well, let's just hope, I can cure my
laptop as soon as possible?


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Most of my f-list already knew the test, but I just couldn't resist... James Joyce, the author of the untranslatable "Finnegans Wake" and a few other vexed works. Shall I take it as a compliment? Or are my weak grammar and the strong preference for "m dashes" and "ellipsis" to blame?
Whatever. I wish there were something of the kind for German texts - I'm really a bit curious about my stories. Besides, my Dad keeps telling me, my SciFi-tales are not SciFi at all. But then again - he doesn't take Ray Bradbury as a SciFi-author either o.O"

I write like
James Joyce

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!



Next topic: sweet student life.

I'm done with two of my Very Important Exams. Freedom starts teasing me with the heady aroma~  but there is still one more test to go (it'll never end...) - biomolecular chemistry this time. Yes, it sounds just as scary as it is ò.ó

Unfortunately, the few scattered thunderstorms didn't bring enough cooling for me to fell comfortable outside, so I moved in with my books - and now we are living in the clinical centres library. Aren't we some big loving flagship family?
Aside from the great library there are although a student canteen, a few lecture rooms, study area with comfortable desks, internet access places, ... actually I was wondering most, when a real life invalid was crossing my way - I almost thought this little autonomic town was exclusively student-populated.

New Homeland >3 )

Well, next topic: A Fairy Tale.

Sometimes life reminds us of myth stories: It could be some horror lullaby or a sweet romance, everything is possible. I'm sure everyone knows his own unbelievable stories to tell - so, how about this one: A week from her 23 B-Day a girl finds a golden lion pendant in dusty piles of old postcards... well, this would be quite a trashy fairy tale, I guess.

My grandma, a very devout and a bit superstitiously person, bought this Leo-amulet the next day I was born. Intending to make it a Birthday present, when I'd turn 18. Unexpectedly, my parents and I moved to Germany, when I was still 14. So, Granny took me aside a few days before the transfer... secretly, my parents wasn't evolved -  it was a secret just between the two of us. And I was so good into hiding the amulet, till I would be old enough to wear it, that I actually forgot about its existence. Like... at all ^^" Moving into a foreign country was troublesome enough to keep my mind occupied with worries and hopes, there wasn't any free time to be reminiscent of old secrets.

So, if I wasn't searching for an old computer game, I was missing, and accidentally found a box full of old postcards, drawings and childish secrets, I would have never came across the pendant.

pendant photo, following by a bit Russian & German kitsch from my 13-years-old romantic alter ego >D )

PS: But now I'm really motivated to work on the SciFi-project, which keeps me awake for quite a while now... Hopefully, the muse will be still  waiting for me, when I'm done with all the exams. Although those are so flighty creatures~

P²S: just for the lulz >3 badass granny's girl >D

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Since the semester is nearly over I finally have enough time for... learning! >D

So the next few days (at least till 16.07.. and then till 28.07) I won't show any serious signs of life @.@"


(c) me & my beloved coffee machine ♥ The lovely china cup was sponsored by my Mom, when I moved out a few years ago >3 (fullview) I guess there should be some stylish logo with that 'coffee point of view'-line but, well, may be next time...


PS: And yes, the heat's still driving me nuts. It sucks the last drops of concentration out of me and leaves only a silly empty shell behind~ (embarrassing) Evidence enough? I haven't done something stupid like that since I was ten ^^""

Okay, off now. See you next weekend, dear f-list and stalkers! <3

_________

EDIT: The next time I'd be complaining about the heat - please, remind me of the great medicine library in the clinical centre a few steps from my home. It's perfect for learning but ... I was freezing. @.@"


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Es hat noch nie jemand versucht mir mit bloßen Händen den Kiefer auseinander zu spalten. Oder mit Zuhilfenahme von Keilen und gezielten Hieben die Knochen zu zersplittern.... Aber es fühlte sich trotzdem ganz danach an. Ja, ja, ich spreche davon, wie mir heute die Weisheitszähne entfernt wurden. Eine ganz neue, atemberaubende Erfahrung war es gewesen. Ich bin mir bloß nicht ganz sicher, ob mir nach der OP keine Risse in der Schädeldecke geblieben sind und versuche mich jetzt hinzulegen, ohne dabei den Kopf allzu heftig zu bewegen.
Ansprechbar bin ich erst, nachdem ich den penedranten Blutgeschmack losgeworden bin. Er ist allgegenwärtig, habe ich das Gefühl, und übertroffen wird er nur von der immer schwächer werdenden Anästhesie. Ein herrliches Duett.
Ok, jetzt Schmerztabletten und ab ins Bett, bis die Schädeldecke doch noch aufplatzt. Ich will die Sauerei nicht sehen, die meine Gedankenfetzten auf dem Kopfkissen hinterlassen würden.
Gute Nacht ^_^
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  • Gestern spät von der Connichi zurück - eine angenehme Con war es dieses Jahr gewesen: kein Stress wegen Nähren, da ich mich diesmal cosplaytechnisch vollkommen gehen gelassen habe und einfach die Gesellschaft meiner Bekannten genoss. Meine lieben Verrückten, ihr seid wunderbar ^.~ (auch wenn ich mit ein paar von euch mal wieder viel zu wenig Zeit verbracht habe... aber ist es nicht immer so, wenn man mit seinen Freundne unterwegs ist?)
  • Lernen will heute nicht so klappen, wie ich es wollte - statt dessen habe ich ein wenig an dem Layout rumgewerckelt: Ich hoffe nur, es wirkt nicht allzu düster? (Änderungen vorbehalten - ich muss mit dem tollwutigen CSS erst klar kommen x.x")
  • Douglas Preston scheint übrigens eine tiefsitztende Abneigung gegen Priester zu hegen, die ich aber durchaus teile... vielleicht ist es eine etwas verfrühte Schlussvolgerung nach nur zwei Büchern, aber dieses Bild von einem Fantiker wurde beide Mal so lebensecht und intensiv beschrieben... oder mir mangelt es einfach an Vorstellungskraft wenn um Glauben geht, so dass ich jedes Bild schlucken würde? Trotzdem - wer über die Gottes Stimme aus einem Teilchenbeschleuniger lesen  will, dem kann ich seine Bücher nru empfehlen.
  • Und ich muss noch immer verdammt viel aufräumen: Das Chaos wird sonst die Überhand gewinnen, wenn ich so weiter mache... Bücherstapeln wechseln sich mit leeren Fürchtekörbchen und Teebeuteln ab, wackelige Häufchen von Kleidungsstücken verwandeln den ohnehin engen Raum in ein wahres Labyrinth.. Schuld ist der eingestürtze Balken im Kleiderschrank... habe ich erwähnt, wie sehr ich endlich in ein eigenes Appartment aus dem Wohnheim umziehen will? .... aber aufräumen muss ich trotzdem. Morgen. Definitv.

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