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Generally speaking, a frustrated spin glass is a disordered magnet system with conflicting interactions between the spins. Diverse forces prevent the spin glass from reaching the energetic minimum (which is the longed-for destination of all systems) - thus, making the system frustrated.

Applying the phenomena to one certain [personal profile] lokuro-particle, one might observe a disturbing amount on fidgetiness. The inability to relax and therefor to function properly. When I'm at work, I keep on thinking about Tintin, comparing the Captain to Bertie Wooster and dream up some weird fanfiction plots.
When at home I'm unable to shoot the university stuff down (and thus, making my fandom-related posts absolutely unreadable).

The upcoming presentation I have to prepare for the next Friday isn't that comforting either. I still don't fully grasp the subject, which makes it a bit difficult to speak about it (in English!) for full 40 minutes. Plus, 20 minutes discussion afterwards.
"Most disturbing, Sir."

So, I'm trying to bring peace to my inner tumour by the good old methods... no, the 81% chocolate with chili isn't working anymore: it's the air-gun shooting :)

It's been years since I've been to my club (well, to be precise: half a year) and the established clientèle certainly isn't getting any younger (with an average member being about twice my age). But somehow I find all these nice grannies and respectable old-fashioned gents adorable.

As for the shooting itself. Gosh, I've been missing the soothing feeling

Don't get any wrong ideas but it's the most calming sport I know. And I've been into a lot of... well, martial arts :) Now, I'm almost ready for that nasty presentation next week. Almost.

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Another way too calm the spirits down are fashion posts. It's raining, so I'll try to be as colourful as my camera and the GIMP program allowed. Welcome to the Haddock!ascot inspired neck porn session ;)
neck wear, colours and dresses )

A colourful weekend, ahoy!



PS.: The Tintin-vid is now download-able (last entry) since it's blocked in Germany and I can't see it anymore, which is kind of annoying. I know it's not that good but I'd like to decide it myself and not via youtube jury.


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My microwave exploded, I have a sore throat and some fever, and the first Master-of-Science semester is anything but structured.
My schedule is full but due to our new, extraordinarily confusing university catalog (Studienordnung) I can't shake the feeling, I'm still missing some important lectures. And I hate lab-work. I'm a theorist not a synthesis-genius like that shy Breaking Bad chemistry teacher. Unfortunately. Otherwise I'd be out there in a veld, cooking meth with a cute hip-hopper XD
By the way, are there any fans of that amazing, dark humored, depressing and simply gorgeous series in my f-list? (Except the one, who is to blame in the first place <3)

Also, after the research work during the Bachelor thesis, it feels a bit weird to play student again. Plus, there are profs from Swiss & Ukraine holding their lectures in German, which sounds a bit wearisome, and German profs lecturing in English - vice versa would be a bit simpler but our administration despises simple decisions.

At least, it's not dull.

Last Tuesday we had a lecture about spectroscopy, especially the Mößbauer-Effect. Let me quote the slides with the synopsis of its discovery:

before 1958:   it could have been discovered earlier. But it wasn't.
1958:               discovered. Nobody cares.
1958-59:          okay, someone cares.. but doesn't believe it.
1959:               fine, everyone believes it. Still doesn't care.
1959-60:          Oh...
1961:               Nobel Prize!

Another Prof, another lecture:

"Here you can see the structure of serotonin: one of the neurotransmitters, responsible for the musculature relaxing, a so called 'happiness hormone'. Interesting fact: When in love, the level of serotonin is quite low. Then again, a person in love is excited not relaxed. Or so I have read."

And he was bloody serious about it. Lately I tend to think I'm going to end like him. What molecule exactly am I missing?
Enough of university, I still have my 'reactiondynamic' homework to procrastinate.

Oh, and John Le Carré is amazing when he writes about Ost- & West-Germany and the Cold War. It's been a while since I enjoyed such a well-plotted old-school Spy Fiction. No unnecessary details, every word is in the right place. And he sure has great observation skills. When he starts to describe a person I almost see a breathing human being even if he missed to mention their hair or eye colour or did so only at the end of the page.

Last but not least, Berlin was amazing, thank you, my dear <3

about 20 Berlin photos )


...Yay. Reaction-dynamics time!


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Autumn-mood.
Always makes me a bit melancholic and peevish. Such a beautiful time of the year, but, gosh, why is the weather so rough lately? Try riding a bike while it's raining and storming and you'll see what I mean -.-"

No, I'm not complaining, because this weekend the weather promised to play nice - while I'm visiting:
Berlin
All-you-can-see tour with my sugar cube <3 (you nickname sounds really weird in English, dearD)

Before I leave - some autumn-style & dumb Jim-Mafioso illusions, inspired by BBC Sherlock.

I'm soo changable )

P.S.: Speaking of which: There are no ex-players. Just as there are no real ex-alcoholics. Once a junkie, always a junkie.

P.P.S.: Also, I actually manged to visit my shooting club in the evening - all the grannies and granpas there are just lovely, talking about cakes, Kartoffelsalat (potato salad?) and grandkids~
(I'm getting better at the gun! The knack is to concentrate on the iron sights {Kimme & Korn} not on the aim. Oh, yeah, and holding still ...)

P.P.P.S.: I'm really ashamed by my (non-existent) participation this year but still - Team Phoenix, I'm proud of you!

Banner sponsored by talented [info]der_jemand! *_*

... And the last P.S.'s for today: (Klausuraufsicht =) Proctoring an exam is the most tedious activity you can imagine. Even correcting the test later is more fun~


Good Night & Berlin ahoy <3

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Today morning was one of the strangest wake-ups I ever had - two police officers asked me about the last time I have seen my next door neighbour. I was still a bit drowsy and they were so serious, all handcuffs and uniforms, and that guy next door went missing and ... well, let's hope, he escaped to South America and is not laying somewhere in Göttingen, six foot underneath ._."
Since I'm the resident advisor (Flursprecher), later that day I had to open his rooms for the parents to take his stuff and .. it was really awkward seeing them ._."

So, I just felt like telling you, I'm alright. Things got a bit hectic here (oh, that's unusual ... not -.-"), so I cut on communication a bit, sorry for that :/
Also, my Dad's vacation for this "summer" has been approved (that was really unexpected), which means, I'll take time off too~ I've really missed my Dad, his humour is... unique. I guess, we'll visit some cities around Germany or just get off to the forest if the weather stays just so fine and sunny :)

Marienburg Castle - Hanover
(last week, (c) me)


wanna see some more? )

P.S. : Did I mention how much I love my shooting club? Even if the old guys can't stop telling me how awesome they were, when they were young... But since they let me learning from them for free, let me borrow their airguns and are actually really teaching me from time to time, I'm fine with that :)

P.P.S.: You are really lucky, dear f-lsit, if I wasn't so tiered this week, I would definitely go on complaining about the Pope's visit in Bundestag and the evil plans of Microsoft Windows 8 to knock Linux & Open Source out. Damn you, Big Brother!
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Since yesterday I'm back in Germany.
Grey, rainy sky. Thunderstorms. High wind and yellow-orange leaves drowning in almost endless puddles. Someone had already switched the weather from summer to autumn and I had totally missed the moment.

(Don't mind the grumping, I still love Göttingen. The town is my soulmate and either Moscow nor Paris could have moved me more~ And autumn weather suits Göttingen really well, it's just the abrupt change, that's getting to me.)

The holidays were ... fun. Not exactly what I was expecting, but my mind really is a bit clearer now. Or at least I hope so. The two weeks seamed somehow dream-like now. Unreal.



Oh, and I first tried playing golf - never thought it would be that great. Want more! :) And I'm still not good in billiard. But I can swim for over two hours and in some creepy boxing machine I've got the second highest ranking XD (Superman!)

Also, I've sprained my ankle really bad. Right, now, I'm at home, reading (John le Carré & Sergej Lukjanenko, shaken, not stirred - I always read two books at a time; one for waiting+eating, another for the evening, a 'go-to-be-story') and - unfortunately - learning for the last of my Bachelor exams.

Indeed, the change from sun & relaxing to raining & learning was quite abrupt. A good chance to learn some discipline? Thank you, dear Universe, for this great opportunity for self-improvement. Damn.

Lukjanenko describes in his novels quite often the concept of a "Dream Line": some kind of a 'navigation system', which will find you a perfect 'verse out of millions upon millions different 'verses. Perfect just for you. Finding it according to the information from the depth' of your mind, your hidden angst and wishes, your true needs. Would you like to leave our universe and live in your own world? At the risk of knowing perfectly well, just who you are and that this place with its strange morals is just exactly what you really deserves? (It can be quite a cruel realization, you know?..)

Well, I shall switch to le Carré again. (Yes, I was brought to it by the film "Tailor, Tinker, Solder, Spy" - officiall trailer looking forward to it! *_*;)

P.S. During the holidays (thanks to that one particular landscape on our way to the beach - giant cactus) I found another hobby: cacti (cactuses? Lots of small, cute cactus-bastards?) I always thought my talent with plants was about Zero. Bad karma, I suppose. I either forget about them completely or start caring way too intense for them to survive. But I want to start this one last experiment.
6 of a kind:



Close-Ups:
basket (there'll be more earth soon)
violet (this one is shy)
red-yellow (the yellow one is Alexander and the red one is Beatrice <3)

Okay, back to my favorite peppermint-tea and learning, yay!

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Actually, the last entry is a bit out-of-date. I started it a week ago, to be precise... but right after I wrote about the "All individuals"-vid, my Internet died and I perceived it as a Sign.

Also, the was an important change in my mood. And some fabulous thunderstorms the next few days.

And my shooting club (I've started with an air gun instead of a rifle!). And sports (that light air gun grows quite heavy in your hand after an hour of shooting -> I need some muscles ò.ó By the way, I've seen two of our Profs in the gum, as well. It's really awkward to see someone who you've only seen all buttoned-up, now wearing only a pair of shorts and a sweat soaked shirt...) And Theater (4 Rooms!). And some lazy afternoons with a book, a pumpkin backed with cheese and a glass of cold-cold milk.
Not to forget the weekend I've spent at my parents. Including a 5-hours-long walk to the sea nearby :3

Altogether, I'm starting to really enjoy my life right now. There is this one last exam, though. Like a dark cloud on the flawless blue sky... But it's at the end of September, so I decided to spend the first two weeks somewhere else :D
Means -> Starting from tomorrow I'll go on holiday!

Good-bye, my dears ♥
See you after 8th September.

P.S.:
The mystical metamorphosis from a tiered geek with dark circles around the eyes to bright and shiny Bacheloretta <3



I guess, I just needed a doctor. (Attention: Sherlock BBC & Doctor Who reference... and, damn, that idea about fem!Moriarty cosplay just wont disappear! Mycroft's to blame. Sure.)

P.P.S. In the last three weeks I've already unlearnd to use the Internet or to write proper entries. I wonder if I'll still remember my LJ-password after two more weeks aft o.O" I hope so, for there are a lot of lab photos at my cam <3

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Best compliment ever: "Would you like to do your master thesis in our research group as well?"

<3<3<3

But since it'll take me a few more years, in the meanwhile Prof B. offered me a job as his research assistant in the group! I'm not sure if I can manage both scientific research and studying in the next winter semester (lots of labs x_x"), but I'd love to return in the group for the next summer semester ^.^

(I can't tell you how happy I am right now - I feel honoured for my brains and and my ideas.. and nothing makes me so happy as appreciation, I'm a vain girl <3 Then again, this kind of satisfaction I also feel after writing a worthy story or making a perfect Birthday-present - it's this feeling of "I-have-created-something-new". It's an addiction, I'm afraid, like adrenalin or alcohol, when it's not there, the life seems to be all dull and boring... )

But, well, I shouldn't get too exited. First things first and I still have my bachelor thesis and a few more exams to worry about...
And, no, I won't tell you what grade I got for that damn oral examination. Was I really that bad?... Dear Me, you should really, like really start learning instead of fangirling your bachelor themes, drinking coffee with the doctorands and go shooting [but it's so relaxing!].
(I hope my Prof will never ever ask me for my official papers for I'd die of shame if he ever sees just how bad some of my grades are. Why the hell was I babbling that nonsense in the oral exam? Damn²)

As for the first attempts at image processing, I wrote a small algorithm for this transformation (not that much of a challenge and I'm still fighting against those holes in their scopes ò.ó" )
[click-able photos]

      

... and then composed  those pictures to a video, where you can only see the strokes of their outlines and how they scrabble about, merging, falling apart, pushing dead bodies around - it's kind of fascinating. The creepy kind *_*;

I'd love to show off a bit more, but I'm not sure which results I can already show in public ._." (maybe there'll be a paper afterwards ^^)
I'll talk more detailed, when I'm done? But you can read the basics about the Dicties here. And right now the experimental part is almost over (or so I hope) and I have started analysing the data. So from now on it's just maths. (for example - I never knew that a blur operation is just a matrix applied to a 2D pixel. o_o")

And something completely different before I'm falling asleep at the desk. A quote from a magazine my college lends me:
[sorry, it's German ^^"]

Titanik, S. 40

"Schule des Lebens

Gegen Ende jeder Beziehung werde ich vorwurfsvoll gefragt, warum mir denn verflixt noch mal das Zerstören so einen kindischen Spaß mache, warum sich alles immer bitteschön nur um mich zu drehen habe und warum ich so ein beschissener Egoist sei, dem die Gefühle anderer schnurzegal sind. Schließlich sei ich als Akademiker ja nicht gerade zu blöde, die Regeln des Zusammenlebens zu verstehen, und außerdem alt und erfahren genug, begangene Fehler nicht zwangshaft wiederholen zu müssen. Die Antwort lautetet: Ich trenne eben gerne Erlerntes von Privatem."
(c) Thomas Tonn

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No end to my uni babbling in sight. Sorry? (In August/September it'll be over~)

But someday I'd like to fan-girl about Firefly, does anyone from my f-list watched it? >D


(P.S.: And I need to write that Sherlock BBC / Weiß Kreuz Crossover to get it our of my system...
Time, please!)

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silly Personal massage to somewhere out there: "Whatever it was, that made your sad, my dear friend, don't you ever give up!"

(Arthur is not plugging drugs here. Or at least I hope, he's not... <3)

P.S.:

Jun. 12th, 2011 09:33 pm
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P.S.: For those who aren't interested in microscopes and my incoherent yip-yapping - there are some other pretty photos to love and cherish on an early summer evening: thaess gallery [really like his colours <3]

Also - Organic Chemistry is a very small-minded science (yay, for Physical Chemistry!), right now I'm putting away my notes from learning for the oral examination, picking up some lines here and there and, well, decide for yourself:

"The main problem for the most of the coupling reactions are the homocouplings ..."

Science doesn't have to be politically correct, but still.
And no, I didn't giggle at the examination. I was way too nervous for that.
(Ich hab nicht mal gekichert, als "Sliding Average" in der Datenanalyse-Vorlesung durch Versprechen als Gleitmittel übersetzt wurde.)

I guess for that kind of foolish notes, I shall revive my twitter instead of spamming my LJ [added the link at the side bar]
Maybe next week.
If I occasionally get rid of my current impressions, the next entry might be shorter and easier to bear, right? <3


P.².S.: When I'm lucky, next week-end we'll see that play - 4 Rooms, sounds like funny crack pretty interesting so far ^_^v


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"The thing Jayne loves about zombies is that they're easy [...]
Sure, it'd get boring if they hung around too long – the things are so slow they're like a target for bitty babies holding their very first guns – but sometimes, a man just likes kick back, relax, and shoot holes in a few heads.
"

Can you imagine a better working day then hearing this fabulous audio!fic about Firefly (space cowboys!) and Zombies and malicious politics ... and working on your bachelor thesis in an empty lab, feeling like a king of your own slightly insane empire?~
Half of my research group is on holiday, so the lab's mine to rule! *muhrhr*

If only the computer wasn't telling me in the middle of an experiment that he can't find the microscope anymore. My first thought was, that a cable was detached, so I went down on my knees searching the cable-salad for some loose connections. Half an hour and a shiny tidy floor later I was at the end of my nerves and just shut the whole damn thing down. And then... a miracle! All of sudden the program seems to recognize the microscope again... I hate that thing and it's lunatic sense of humour.
So, if only the whole adjustment wouldn't take so long - the last two weeks I was getting home about 8 p.m. and so damn hungry and tired as if I was pushing heavy rocks up some steeply mountain, the whole work could be quite ... relaxing >D
(Yeah, good bye Taekwondo! My teacher will kill me the next time he'll see me. If he ever see me again.. lucky me, the last weeks had quite a few public holidays in Germany and on those days I only stepped by in the labs for a few hours, curious about the results of the last night...)

But, well, instead of ranting, I'd rather show off a bit - I got an A+ (1,0) for my presentation! ^__^ (shiny!)

Well, I was good, I just never expected being that good. But if they insists, I sure won't complain. In fact, I was feeling rather disappointed after I finished, I had so much more to tell the auditorium, but the questions were all dull (why the hell they asked me about the construction of some boring neutron reactor if they could have seen the very long derivation of the Fourier transformation instead?)

And on Wednesday I had an oral examination in the subject I always hated the most, so I probably should have been learning the last weekend real hard.
Expect that I was visiting that Doctor!girl I met at the shooting club... It was a warm and pleasantly odd evening on her balcony with some strange medicine students [those people are really, really creepy, but funny to chat with >3) and a guy who danced tango like a professional seducer. Just perfect. Finally I found someone who's taller than me! I only hope the next time won't be in a dark hallway but on the dance floor.
(Also, he's an American, reminds me a bit of Crawford >3 are people from oversea really that tall or is it just it just me, who's so lucky?)

... and I still got over with that oral examination. I'm not sure, which grade I'll get, but I had definitely not failed - otherwise the Prof would have told me so; he's someone who really enjoys telling students they failed the topic and have to come in a few weeks to see him again.

Strangely, I don't fell overworked lately. Not too much at least.
Sure, I'm spending all my free time working on that programming stuff, or lingering in the lab, but it's still interesting and I'm feeling so alive.

Also, have found myself great colleagues. And some friends too. And that tall medicine student to dance with <3
(Damn, he was just gorgeous!)

Especially unusual is having people around, who share more than two interests of yours.
You know that one cute girl from the university I was talking about lately?
Not only I can invite her over in my office and we'll chat about Weiß Kreuz over coffee (we're both schwarz fans <3), and science, and Profs. And... the world domination? But we can also go hiking in a beautiful forest nearby or having our Sunday film-nights with lots of Sci-Fi & Sherlock and laughing, and... I never had a friend to share all the interests at once; always had to split them to three or four people to bear, so I'm a bit suspicious - the girl is way too matching me to be real. (Well, not too perfect after all - we have totally different eating habits. How on earth doesn't she like spinach and paprika and aubergine? o.o) But It's a great feeling finding a friend like this.
... Oh, and the guys at the labs are quite interesting as colleagues too - and yes, I do find that quite abnormal unusual.
(btw, except from one exchange-student from China - I'm the only girl there. Now, that's fine with me <3)

Back to my actual thesis (I know, my f-list is probably already sick and tired of hearing about amoebas and so... but I'm afraid it won't change till I'm done with this subject ^^" Can you bear with it till August?)

Wanna see some creepy, bacteria contaminated data? <3



And my cool microscope with it's golden electrode? ^.^
(the poor cam quality doesn't do him justice, I'm afraid)



a few more shiny close up's )

Just one more thing...
On Wednesday-evening I had a quite revealing conversation with some of the technical assistants from the labs. She asked me if could turned off one of the apparatus downstairs for it's her finishing time and she don't want to wait a few more hours for the machine to cool down.

me: Sure, no problem! I'll stay here till late anyway~ *sigh*
TA: As usual, um? You sure want to make the best of you. Me on the other hand... Well, I already have my house, kids and a dog, but when you want a career, you sure have to stay till late and work hard. I'd rather have my family.

Some of those old women who likes to patronized you. Fine and all. But I just can't agree with her.

Sure, I want success, and, yeah, I deserve acknowledgement (who don't?) and I sure as hell want to make a Doctor Degree afterwards, but someday I want my house as well. And a child and a partner whom I can trust (expert for the dog. I'm a cat type <3) and free time to travel around the world and going out with friends and ... is it the bitter really, that you can't have everything you want, or is it just her way to excuse herself?

Then on the other hand, I was sure willing to turn the apparatus off since I spend the last few weeks almost living there.
So may be she has a point after all.

But.
We have those two Profs in our working group. A. & B. (it's their real names shortcuts <3)
And did I ever mention how really handsome my Prof. A. is? And how absolutely sweet his wife is? She taught us Biomolecular Chemistry in the fifth semester...And how cute the two little boys of the Prof. B are?

So, yeah, they don't look like they are suffering from loneliness. I guess, I'll manage it too. Somehow.



And if not... well, my amobeas still love me <3
('cause I have the glucose which makes them happy and the caffeine which calm them down~ xD)

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Contrary to my previous plans I had to spend the weekend at the university, looking after my experiment which wasn't going exactly how I've expected it to go... So much for enjoying the nice weather~

All things considered the days are so frenetic lately, I'm slightly afraid, I bite off a bit more than I can chew...
Bun then again, it's spring, I'm young and the whole world is at my feet, so why the hell not?

For example I have a weak spot for all kind of weapons, but after a year full of kendo, I wanted to try out something completely different... So, at Thursday I was at an air rifle shooting - the every first time I hold a gun in my hand, not a shotgun though.
And it was an amazing feeling, staying there, holding still, full concentration and for a few seconds the world stays still ... and then - a fast sound and a tiny hole in the target. After the first attempts I hit the bull's eye quite frequently <3



... Despite my poor eyesight.
But, well, you don't have to boast 0.0 dioptres to take an accurate aim. The decisive factor is the ability to stand still. (After the first 15 shoots I had to make a pause though - to focus on a mean small point in a 10 meters distance isn't that healthy for weak eyes either.)
I'll see if my enthusiasm will hold for a few more days and if I'm as capable with small calibre guns as I'm with rifles than maybe I'll join the shooting association~ (this one: Schützenverein)

Even though, the members are all looking quite cliché-like so far. You know, so .. typical old school German. Old geezers with beer bellies, doing nothing but talking about how much better it was in the past.....
The only other Newbie was a girl of my age <3 (the new generation comes!) She studies medicine and on Wednesdays, when I have my Taekwando lessons, she's doing Boxing! I've seen her trough the glass doors of the next room in our martial arts centre~  It was quite a remarkable coincidence, meeting her there. So, afterwards we had to clink our coffee glasses at the strange twist of fate. And, gosh, we have talked till the very late hour, which is absolutely unusual for me...  I'm still a bit suspicious of fate. A few years ago I had complained, all the awesome people I know are living awful far away from me and now - there are people here, at my place, just a stone's throw away, whom I can talk to. About each and every topic I want; from SciFi and chemistry and theatre and politics to Sherlock BBC or Weiß Kreuz, or yaoi & yuri and travelling plans and crazy novel plots.
Life is quite awesome right now.
(which doesn't mean, I don't miss my far-away friends as well ._." But I've already planed to visit my dearest ones this year! ò.ó. So, Prague & Berlin are definitely included. And we'll see, if I can afford a non-European journey someday <3)

And a small university related note as well:
The computer applications lectures by my prof (my because it's his study group where I'm working at my thesis) are a bit complicated for I'm not really a computer freak, but at least the prof seems to be quite a funny fellow. Lucky me, he only looks like Dr. House (without a crutch) but his character is much nicer (and a bit awkward. Tight black jeans presents just a perfect contrast for the nasty habit of wiping the chalk from his hands on his pants. It always looks like somebody had grabbed his ass....) But I've learned a lot about python, C++, Linux & Co., so if after this evening I suddenly disappear from the Internet, it means, the experiment of changing my Windows to Linux went wrong and I occidentally killed my notebook....

Oh, and a few more photos, since you had to listen to me talking for a while now.. just lay back and click on the cut to enjoy the non-verbal photo-communication about Science Slam and the current girlish spring fashion presented by the silly Me <3


(c) ThOP
Stage @ ThOP )

~

massive self-aggrandisement <3 )
Let me act childish, I'm already terrified of how difficult the next two month' will be - I'm excited and anxious at the same time. How am I suppose to learn properly when I'm so high?~

P.S.: I shall post a few Lisbon photos within the next weeks... because one good friend pointed out to me, that when it comes to the memories of good times, even bad photos are better then none <3

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This note will be quite short, a mere sign of life: The university had started and this weekend there also will be the first series of our performances (my turn to speak will be in the third lecture-weekend - it's in May - on the third day... is the universe trying to tell I'm special? XD)

Lisbon turned out to be an absolutely marvellous city ... left by their light-headed citizens to decay. Absolutely irresponsible but with no bad intentions behind it - just the native laziness. As always.
No wonder the most remarkable arts and paintings belongs to an Armenian billionaire's museum - Gulbenkian's collection. They had Renoir and Claude Monet, Old Egyptian sculptures and Evangeliaries from Constantinople, Qing vases and décolleté jewellery.

But even apart from the museums the whole city should be declared as an unbelievable but amazing piece of art ♥ (one just have to clean the place up first.)

Unfortunately, my camera died on the very the first day, so I had to put up with my mobile phone cam - you can image the lousy quality ._."
(Also, I didn't realize, I was photo-addicted until my dear cam left me ... it's bitter)
Obviously, I can't resist to post a few stupid views anyway. If I just reduce the size to small enough pictures, then may be the low quality won't be that apparent?
I mean.. they do have modern art over there too <3



A bigger report with pictures and impressions will follow later, right now I'm a bit too tired for any coherent thought that is longer than two sentences. 
(We had to change the flights on the Airport in Paris. And let me tell you, there is nothing more enervating than spending the whole night awake, while on your left there are a dozen of homeless persons - I'll never, never, never want to end like that - and on your right a few workers, boring and drilling and making impossible loud noises. The whole damn night long. Why on earth does everybody seems to work only at night? In Portugal it was just the same - are they afraid to bring shame on their families if someone catches them while OMG! working?)

Well, back in Göttingen I rushed to the Science Slam , it's some sort of a humorous competition between the various profs and some mere bachelors, everyone tries to earn the audience's sympathy to win the game >3  This time it was Jonas Rohde with his comparison of the classic and the popular music. He especially talked about the "future-oriented attention" ("zukunftsorientierte Aufmerksamkeit" ) and how our brains rewards us (= likes the tone) when we can foresee or "intuit" the further trend of the melody~

Also, today I sneaked into an "Applied Criminology" lecture ("Angewandte Kriminologie"). Just because I can.
There was one "While Collar" episode, when an archaeology student attend to a criminology course and... well, there were no Neal Caffrey for me, but it reminded me a lot of the politics lessons at school >3 Next week I'll see if  "Criminology in 19th century" will be more fun. Yes, now it's "Garrow's Law" to blame ^^"

Even if according to Sherlock, I'm doing it all wrong: covering my brains over with rubbish and useless data.. but I just have to distract myself from being too nervous from the upcoming bachelor thesis.
Also, when I'm in an auditorium - I can't eat and it's definitely a good thing for my figure (in Portugal they always gave me a double portion for looking so thin and cute. And I just can't say "no" to a tasty paella or some hot lasagne >3 ... and now I have to deal with the consequences x_x")

Speaking about food~ I've discovered my weak point for Häagen-Dazs. Especially for the mix of two portions: Coffee and Rum *_*;;  It tastes absolutely delicious together <3

P.S.: My Dad told me, there were major problems with LJ lately. Was it that bad? Also - was there something else I had missed? If so, I would appreciate if you point it out for me, for I surely can't catch up with everyone o.o"


P.P.S.: Obviously, one shouldn't be boasting about enjoying the life way too loud - the university is an envious bitch. I'll have to work the next week too =/ In-between the lectures, the week-end performances and the preparation for my thesis (did I mention I have to learn python coding? Seems that my prof simply forgot to mention it the last time. Well, now I'm really a bit frightened of the upcoming weeks x_x") 


"And if you cannot sleep, let us hope it's from anticipation and not fear." (c) Garrow's Law.

2011

Dec. 30th, 2010 05:50 pm
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I hope you all are enjoying the X-Mas holidays! (and are going to celebrate the New Year's Eve till the morning light?) And everybody had find their special wish to whisper when the the dark tower rings the bells at the turn of the year~
(dramatic pause)

And now for the News.

For the next 5 months I'll have to take quite a dubious medicine. The list of the possible adverse reactions is so long, I even got an extra little book for thoughtful reading. One of the most fatal warnings promises depressions to the point of the suicide. Well, I already take the pills for one and a half months and I feel strangely happy all the time :3 Since it was clearly verified, that the meds lowers the level of the serotonin in the brain, I shouldn't even try to think how happy I'll be without that side-effect. Maybe I'm just glad to see my family once again (it's nearly two months since I visited them last). Or maybe I'm in love. Or I just had eaten way to much sweet honey this morning. Or the depressions are just not my thing? >D

Okay, back to the serious issues. The Christmas Eve always means stress and I'm not a great fan of that period. But I had visited two wonderful people, who made this time bearable for me
Now I'm at my parents, which means - food. Lots of delicious food. Oh, and presents. And old films.... okay, the winter can be nice.

The next year is going to be even more stressful then 2010. Yet interesting. My bachelor theses theme is clear now - I'm going to work on research of oscillation-like behavior of protozoa, using atomic force microscopy (AFM) and impedance analyzer. (doesn't it sound so very cool and adult and scientific and... yes, I do know what it means. Well, at least I have quite a good idea. In a few months I can tell you more. After all, it will be really a research work, which means the methods or the direction could change any time. Also, it means that  the result of my thesis can end in a set of conclusions like: "As we just demonstrated, it doesn't work this, that and the other way." But I can still starve the bacteria, till I have the results I want... Yes, as a child I really wanted to became a mad scientist. Who didn't?)

The other New Year resolution will be learning saxophone. I'm afraid, I still haven't enough money to afford the lessons. It's gross how expensive the tuition is ._.", so the most realistic scenario is, that it' still be a dream for the next year. Or the year after next... but after visiting a musician for Christmas I can't get rid of the idea. (Also, does someone from my f-list like jazz? I'd like to fangirl :3)
My Christmas host is to blame for even more strange ideas. Cosplay-plans (Weiß Kreuz - Hetalia crossover? Yes, please. Oh, and a special Halloween surprise *tehe*) And this strong desire to travel. (Dear Santa, I only wish for money and health. Anything else I can procure myself just fine. Thanks.)

And it's snowing all the time. So my New Year's Wishes will be all about sun and warmth and all the pretty summer-colors of Spain~ summerwine



(Those were the sangría tinta (for my mum) and blanca (for myself), my dad had a cocktail, but I'm afraid, I don't know the name anymore ^^")

And a few more photos for my Christmas' musician. The room kind of reminds me of Chopin >3~

click )

Oh, and a fanart one from a great Russian artist junajull (copyright). Saxophone-love >3



P.S.: Wanny play? You know the famous DeviantArt drinking-game memo, when the person who caught the kiriban can call out for a photo of their wish? Catch the 10,000 pageview on my flagcounter, send me a PN with the pagescreen and I'll write an entry with the theme of you choice >3

Well, now I'm off for a while - family time.

Happy Next Year everybody! ☆

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I've got a new crush lately: a cruel and utterly beautiful one - analytical chemistry ♥ Actually, the course ended a few weeks ago, but since I'm still working on the paper with the results, I can't get rid of it. Forensic science is frustrating and fascinating at the same time, but writing the research down is quite an annoying job. Especially, since I'm working with TeX again and after a long break I lost lots of my skills x_x"
Also, I set one of my spectrograms on fire ^^" Well, no more  perfumed candle while learning anymore?
(or maybe I was just nervous about my bachelor thesis. Buridan's ass would be the best match for my soul mate. After 2 and a half years I finally find out that biophysical chemistry would be my dream comes true, and now they want me to decide about a thesis in only a few hours - I'll need at least a half of a year  to make my mind o_o")

Well, curios to see some high-tech devices I was working with?

click~ )




Also, I've started ballroom dancing! Since I was on my own, I got a random dance-partner there... Well, he is studying French & Politics eduction for a teaching post at secondary schools. Which makes us quite a funny "couple" (side note: in a completely innocent way - he's so skinny and tiny, I'm feeling like some plump orc while dancing with him XD But at least I can learn how to lead ... my future dancing partner sure wouldn't mind? <3)
One evening we were coming back from the dancing lesson, passing "some strange guys with stocks" and I had to switch to the Mr. know-it-all and was talking about shinai and kendo for the rest of the evening. He fled as soon as he could... Whatever. I just noticed, how I miss kendo ._." But I promised myself to go fencing this semester, which was not the best decision I made. Not only I run into my old relationship (which isn't that bad) but  the course is also quite boring (which is bad!). Well, may be it'll getting better in a few weeks (or months) but right now it's not much of a challenge to prick a fencing glove with a floret . Even when the glove is sliding down the wall - after a half of an hour even a monkey will get it.

Also, I desperately need money. Since this year there won't be any new TA positions at the university, (yes, we have to pay over 700 € each semester for studying and they still have nerves to say there have no money! >_<") I had to find another part-time job. So I've got a new student that I'm tutoring after university and one-to-one tutoring is way more stressful that teaching in a class. But since the payment is better, I guess, it's okay. (Just the same as everywhere: working for the industry was always more profitable than for the sake of science XD)

I still had a few evenings left, reserved for culture and social contacts. After sitting at home for days and just learning or starring an the celling all day long (which is sometimes the same) it was just great wandering through the Christmas market or visiting the theatre. 
The Physicists. The first of Dürrenmatt's play I ever read (and it was love at the first sight act), unfortunately, they had to cut a lot (it was only a 2-hours play ._.) and one of the nurses (Monica - the one who was still alive at the beginning XD) still managed to get undressed <.<" (why? WHY? Why does someone have to strip for a play to get acknowledged?) but it was still the good old angry Dürrenmatt >D (for the German Text and Photos from the play go here)
The other play I absolutely recommend is "Party Game" (here more but still not famous enough for a wikepedia article, I guess ) - especially the end, when everything turns upside down and the real intentions are revealed. At that point I was already pleased with the moral of the story, but than - just few minutes before the end - the plot turned one more time and there was the next level of the intrigue. (also, it was performed in an old operation hall which was an amazing idea - despite sitting on the both sides from the scene you never had the impression of starring at someone's ass instead of their faces. Great interpretation!)
The concept of the play reminds me of "Inception" (yeah, I'm quite slow on the uptake~) - but the idea of dream in a dream in a dream is just so after my fancy! *_*;; (Are there any Weiß Kreuz crossover with Inception? Not only it would explain what Farfarello and Berger was doing in Crawfords mind, but wouldn't Schuldig make just a perfect Forger? >3 And Nagi would be awesome as an Architect. Craword - the Pointman? And Farfarello... well ... the ultimate totem? XD)

Oh, and while speaking about awesomeness: Not only I forgot to mention a bunch of great authors from the summer 120_minuten-project (Team Van Gogh - we were awesome! <3) but I also nearly missed the new X-Mas time challenges. (No, I sure don't have any free time for writing.. but I spend way too much hours sleeping lately. If I rearrange the priorities there sure will be a few hours left..)

Banner-time! I couldn't decide so there will be 3 Van Gogh's! XD


(by awesome [livejournal.com profile] nyx_chan)


(by talented [livejournal.com profile] lumcheng)

 
(by great [livejournal.com profile] der_jemand)


PS: The best receipt against the winter depressions: eating eucalyptus-honey & reading Kurt Vonnengut. (hui, he was studying chemistry too? And did his magistracy in anthropology? Sure why not? *_*;)




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"Ich erkläre feierlich, dass ich das Grundgesetz und die Gesetze der Bundesrepublik Deutschland achten und alles unterlassen werde, was ihr schaden könnte." - mit diesem feierlichen Bekenntnis und dem Aushändigen der Einbürgerungsurkunde wurde ich letzte Woche offiziell eine deutsche Staatsbürgerin. Die Nachrichten aus Stuttgart lassen zwar einige Zweifel an dem Erhalt der Grundsätze aufkommen, aber schließlich hatte mir keiner versprochen, ich würde fortan auf [Poll #1631149]

Also, a Jazz-week is coming in November. Autumn can't be better this year. Storytelling-time?





(c)photo by Me, fairy-book by Dali-museum, Mallorca, 2010




lokuro: It's the solar system, by ? (Default)
Prologue

 Der Regen fiel unaufhörlich, ja geradezu andauernd,
denn wenn es nicht in Strömen regnete,
herrschte ein Normalregen,
und sobald der aufhörte, setzte Nieselregen ein.

S. 245 "Gottesstreiter" von Andrzej Sapkowski
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What does a workaholic do when he's back home from great holidays? Right - he works overtime. The anoganic synthesis labs started a few weeks ago and since it's almost over, I'm up to my eyes in project reports. It's a love-hate relationship [♥]
(we even have poetry among the lines - "Continue to stir the reaction until all of the AgNO3 has reacted to form a fluffy white precipitate." (c) Robert A. Stockland Jr. and others)

Today should be the last day of the practical curses but the plan is a bit out of date now - there was a little accident this morning. So the rooms are closed till... Well, nobody knows when it's possible again to enter the laboratory... and not to pass out the very second. It stinks to high heaven. And this time it wasn't me, who is to blame. (it's enough that I had nearly build a bomb last week. Incidental. I just forgot to retrofit a ventilation before heating up. I'm sorry?)

And it's always great to have some breaks once a while, whether it's an exhilarating distraction or not:

By the way, I'm still jobbing at the inter-cultural centre as the tutor for chemistry. So I have to show the exchange students around - it only takes a week during the semester break but each time after talking to them I'm plagued by an incurable yearning for distant places. I want my Erasmus-year too! But, well, maybe during the master-program?
And it's funny to learn the differences between the countries: Here we only have two tries to pass an examination, afterwards you have an oral with the prof. Then maybe you're allowed to try the very last time. You fail this too and it's over - you never may study chemistry again. Well, at least not in Germany.
In Italy you may try as often as you want, if only you pay. And the UK-student only said, he never failed that much to find out, what happens XD

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And to mention some anime-fun too:
Two weeks ago I had the pleasure to welcome the Lord of Hell at my place... and she has the most fascinating eyes I've ever seen @.@" Some silly US-UK-posing follows: (it's so weird not to be the one wearing glasses xD)

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We can act IC. Kind of. The Pissed and The Happy One.

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And at the evening I also had a cocktail called: "The Pirate" >3
(Brat, why didn't you remind me of teaching you proper 'Poker'? Now you have to visit me once more! ♥ )
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And since I promised to report about holidays a while ago, I can mix the dull labs-picspam with candy-striped holiday photos.. And wax lyrical about the sea. And the both lighthouses guarding our bay... dreaming is the only way not to drawn in the sea of the despair, 'cause it's raining and raining and raining all the day long. And the weather forecast promise rain for the whole week. Great.

Laboratory vs. Holidays memories.

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And now the colourful Holiday-part for the comparison:

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cklic-click once again for all the colourful dreams please )

Loki on the rocks. Ha ha.

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Okay, it's useless try to force two weeks of exhausting sweet nothing into one single post, so let's call it a day now.

(away for the last dinner - the Hokkaido pumpkin topped with melted cheese~ The autumn won't last long and afterwards it'll be no pumpkin for me, so it's okay eating that late, isn't it?..)



EDIT: A few are corrected but the
embarrassments just doesn't end... beware: most mistakes are sill remain covert ^^"


lokuro: It's the solar system, by ? (Default)
Here I am back again in rainy, windy, grey and cold Germany.
The recent vacation already seems like a colourful dream to me. Yesterday there were bright sunlight, warm sea, delicious cocktails ... and at once it's unfriendly autumn all over the place. (usually I'm a big fan of subtle autumn melancholy but it came so unexpected this time. And I already miss 4 hours swimming a day ._.")

A decent pic-spam will follow the days, first I have to unpack bags... and prepare the synthesis papers for the an-organic advanced Labs which starts on Monday. The labs'll take the whole September. (And I already feel like I have forgotten everything I've learned the last year. This emptiness in my head gives me a strange but somehow comforting feeling @.@) Anyway, it's impossible to concentrate when they are playing good old rock in your inner courtyard . "Born to be Wild", "Highway to Hell", "Venus", "Summer of '69". I couldn't have wished for a better concert! 
(one typical moment from the holidays: I told Dad, there were a lot bright-summer-time-music on my MP3 player and he borrowed it for one evening. The first band this wilful apparatus decide to play was Manowar >D Well... bright light heavy metal? >D)

Another topic before I could drift off once again:
I got the written authorisation from the Russian embassy to forfeit the citizenship. If I'm lucky, I'll obtain the German one even before the New Year! :)

PS: Sorry, for the incoherent content - I have to catch up on sleep for two days. Gonna start right now >)

P²S: And lots of love to my parents, Dali and Peter. F. Hamilton for making my holiday such a great time >D

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EDIT: 
I just couldn't resist to post a few ^^"

Dream vs. Reality Comparison - vol. 1.

Dream-part:



is like...



the reality part >D )

Okay, but now I'm really off >D



lokuro: It's the solar system, by ? (Default)
...  I passed all the exams! Or at least I hope so - the results aren't published yet. But I'm quite positive about it :) 

Well, tomorrow I'll be in Bonn, reminding myself of the good old cosplay days; unfortunately, I won't stay for Saturday as planed - so much for planing your life without bribing the Fates first.
Bun since I'll be in Hanover later, visiting my parents at the weekend, I can finally ask them out for "Shrek 4". My little revenge. Mum can be very persuasive and so I had to invite them out, if I want my B-Day present. Otherwise she would keep it. And no, I have really no idea, what it could be o.O"

For the beginning of next week I'll  have a visitor (frosty Icicle - mein Eiszapfelchen~) and afterwards I can slow down at last, trying to comprehend the meaning of 'holidays'. I promise to work hard on understanding xD

Oh, well, I should be packing my bags now, so the usual photo-spam will be at minimum for today xD But since I'm such an photo-exhibitionist - a meme, which I had impudently stolen from [livejournal.com profile] nyx :

"Ask me to take a picture of any aspect of my life that you're interested in - it can be anything: from the house I live in to my favorite shoes. Leave your choice here as a comment, and I will reciprocate by taking the pictures and posting them as an LJ entry. Ask as for as many as you want. That way you get to know a little bit about my life, if you're remotely interested in it."

But consider that the results may take a long time ^^" ( I'm just modelling myself on our academics, they correct our exams at their leisure too! >.<")

PS: Animagic - if you want to meet me at Friday, feel free to ask for the phone-number, I'll be there from 13 p.m. till the last train home to my Schuldig.

Oh, and a little teaser for Animagic, made by the awesome Devil-Schu:




Right, I'll cosplay B.Crawford this time. Surprise, surprise! XD But after cosplaying him for three years now, there can be just some random own creation now. Which one I'll choose this time, depends on weather >3

click for the little Mafia- Mr.Crawford-cosplay teasing  )

Tired.
Plus, I'm leaving early in this morning. So, packing now. Really.

Off till Wednesday, afterwards I'll answer all the PN's and write all the drabbles. And fly to the moon.

lokuro: It's the solar system, by ? (Default)
Most of my f-list already knew the test, but I just couldn't resist... James Joyce, the author of the untranslatable "Finnegans Wake" and a few other vexed works. Shall I take it as a compliment? Or are my weak grammar and the strong preference for "m dashes" and "ellipsis" to blame?
Whatever. I wish there were something of the kind for German texts - I'm really a bit curious about my stories. Besides, my Dad keeps telling me, my SciFi-tales are not SciFi at all. But then again - he doesn't take Ray Bradbury as a SciFi-author either o.O"

I write like
James Joyce

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!



Next topic: sweet student life.

I'm done with two of my Very Important Exams. Freedom starts teasing me with the heady aroma~  but there is still one more test to go (it'll never end...) - biomolecular chemistry this time. Yes, it sounds just as scary as it is ò.ó

Unfortunately, the few scattered thunderstorms didn't bring enough cooling for me to fell comfortable outside, so I moved in with my books - and now we are living in the clinical centres library. Aren't we some big loving flagship family?
Aside from the great library there are although a student canteen, a few lecture rooms, study area with comfortable desks, internet access places, ... actually I was wondering most, when a real life invalid was crossing my way - I almost thought this little autonomic town was exclusively student-populated.

New Homeland >3 )

Well, next topic: A Fairy Tale.

Sometimes life reminds us of myth stories: It could be some horror lullaby or a sweet romance, everything is possible. I'm sure everyone knows his own unbelievable stories to tell - so, how about this one: A week from her 23 B-Day a girl finds a golden lion pendant in dusty piles of old postcards... well, this would be quite a trashy fairy tale, I guess.

My grandma, a very devout and a bit superstitiously person, bought this Leo-amulet the next day I was born. Intending to make it a Birthday present, when I'd turn 18. Unexpectedly, my parents and I moved to Germany, when I was still 14. So, Granny took me aside a few days before the transfer... secretly, my parents wasn't evolved -  it was a secret just between the two of us. And I was so good into hiding the amulet, till I would be old enough to wear it, that I actually forgot about its existence. Like... at all ^^" Moving into a foreign country was troublesome enough to keep my mind occupied with worries and hopes, there wasn't any free time to be reminiscent of old secrets.

So, if I wasn't searching for an old computer game, I was missing, and accidentally found a box full of old postcards, drawings and childish secrets, I would have never came across the pendant.

pendant photo, following by a bit Russian & German kitsch from my 13-years-old romantic alter ego >D )

PS: But now I'm really motivated to work on the SciFi-project, which keeps me awake for quite a while now... Hopefully, the muse will be still  waiting for me, when I'm done with all the exams. Although those are so flighty creatures~

P²S: just for the lulz >3 badass granny's girl >D

lokuro: It's the solar system, by ? (books - delocalized mind)
Since the semester is nearly over I finally have enough time for... learning! >D

So the next few days (at least till 16.07.. and then till 28.07) I won't show any serious signs of life @.@"


(c) me & my beloved coffee machine ♥ The lovely china cup was sponsored by my Mom, when I moved out a few years ago >3 (fullview) I guess there should be some stylish logo with that 'coffee point of view'-line but, well, may be next time...


PS: And yes, the heat's still driving me nuts. It sucks the last drops of concentration out of me and leaves only a silly empty shell behind~ (embarrassing) Evidence enough? I haven't done something stupid like that since I was ten ^^""

Okay, off now. See you next weekend, dear f-list and stalkers! <3

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EDIT: The next time I'd be complaining about the heat - please, remind me of the great medicine library in the clinical centre a few steps from my home. It's perfect for learning but ... I was freezing. @.@"


9 %

Jun. 30th, 2010 01:22 pm
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Still 91 % left xD

My Dad just send me an e-mail concerning our next vacation, I hope, we'll agree on Croatia this time *_*" after Madrid I'm way to tired for another cultural trip (it really sounds despicable, I guess ^^" But I'd like to swim 40% of my 2-week holiday this time, thanks. There are still another 60% left and I'm willing to spend it visiting diverse castles & its environs. My cam is rotting without climbing any rocks while photo-shooting xD Which reminds me, I still didn't post any pics from Spain, did I? Aghz. )

Well, I'm just spending the lunch break dreaming, as always. But today it's a bit chilly outside and I'm thirst for action. I'd love nothing better now than doing something stupid and get out of this town. To go somewhere. Anywhere. 
Nagh, just dreaming in the warm glow?

You have to zoom the map - especially the Europa part - to see more details. And in the USA it was only Florida - I'm feeling a bit like cheating seeing the whole country marked o.O" 







 


And a few last photos. Once again.
I was 10 or 12 years old and it was the first time I was in a foreign land and a the first time I've seen "a cosplayer" too - it was a bit like a dream. And that for I'm so in love with photos - it's an archaeological evidence it was really life and not just dreaming.

Warning: The pictures aren't pretty nor they are high quality shots but I'm looking so capital excited here as only a child can be. So hell, why not? And the cosplay-girls were pretty there >D


even more pictures )

P²S: I should stop acting so nostalgic over dumb old memories, but the weather is to blame. Sure.


 

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