To work!

Jun. 7th, 2012 11:07 pm
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Taking the Captain as my role model once again:



I'm not fond of whiskey but there are plenty of other possibilities at hand....

Since the presentation on Friday is in English, I will sit down and improve my poor linguistic skills.“ so she said and opened the new tab on the bookmark  'Archive of our own'. Because English used in fanfictions has almost the same vocabulary as in any scientific topic. Especially when it comes to sigmatropic rearrangements. As if.

(But: If I get a cent each time I say 'homo' during my presentation, I'd be a rich girl by the end of the week. Too bad it's mostly just the highest occupied molecule orbital.)


Also, why do I keep saying Wodehouse instead of Woodward? P.G. Wodehouse would have never written such ridiculous rule
s...

The problem is: As much as I love tutoring my students or talking without drawing a breath about my current obsession or just having a nice chat with my friends about any topic you name (even the ones I have nothing to say about)... I just lose all of my charm when you have me standing in front of a big audience, when noone cares about what you are saying. Well, except for the examiner of cause. Who happened to be the one who once gave me the worst mark of my life in an oral exam. Lucky me.

Let's hope my English will be so bad, he wont even understand me and will have to pretend the presentation was alright and he has no further questions.

Who am I kidding?..

Back to reading fanfiction learning.


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Want this whisky bottle oh so badly, don't you, Captain? ;)



The above mentioned picture shows Me and the Internet the right way to fight the temptation. In fact, the only way, if you're not the Oscar Wilde type (according to him the best way is to yield to it.) Lucky me, our Internet was down for a while - so the start in the new semester was rather smooth this time ;) I had plenty of time for the theater, experimental reports and walking in the rain. And I still can't decide whether to go into the Biophysics or Laser-Spectroscopy.. I'll bet you, I will end up writing my master thesis in an entirely different subject >D

Also - never neglect an opportunity to post an excerpt of your current obsession. I've already told you how those (that is -
obsessions) tend to affect me, right? Mostly in a positive sense. Obviously, "The Adventures of Tintin" isn't such a good influence as one might expect...

Since my hair is already standing up in a most ridiculous way (due to a misguided hairdresser who apparently had something against me. And the gravity), the Fate (such a joker) had a fresh idea. Nether alcohol nor a smoking pipe but an epic crash down the stairs. It could have been a page out of a comic book for all the banging down. Step for step. Really - I always thought the authors were exaggerating but it certainly is possible to fall down the stairs the "showy" style. Without breaking your neck (don't try it at home, kids!) but only with skinned knees, some fancy bruises and a bit of a shock.

Maybe I should get me another obsession. A really boring one would be nice for a change.
(But the Captain and Tintin being so perfect together makes it hard to resist. I even start lusting after some longish fan-fiction stories or a role-playing full of epic fails, crazy adventures and glorious misunderstandings. Once a junkie - always a junkie >3 any interested parties?)

Also, are there any Jeeves & Wooster crossover with Tintin's 'verse? There definitely should be - just think about how Bertie would have taught the Capitan to act like a proper squire (including playing golf without destroying the whole place, getting engaged a bit more often and bearing with less colorful ties).

I always crave for the wrong kind of crossover 
- try and find any Weiß Kreuz & Sherlock BBC crossfiction among all the single'verse stories! I ought to start writing again. Beware: According to my experimental reports I tent to amuse my supervisor a lot. Have some quotes:

[German. The next one will be in English due to the American Prof. teaching us. Since he won the Chemistry Humbold Prize he's the boss.]

"... der entscheidende Schritt ist dabei die Zufallsreaktion." [Sollte natürlich die Zerfallsreaktion heißen.] 
Und so eine Redewendung wie "... durch die gedankliche Extrapolation der Literaturwerte." ist anscheinend auch nicht Existenzberechtigt ._."

/back to learning. NOW.


PS. Yes, dreamwidth. Because I love to try new, shiny things out? And because of the tintin_kinkmeme. Obviously.
I'm still mostly on the LJ, though. Home, sweet home and all the amazing friends <3



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My microwave exploded, I have a sore throat and some fever, and the first Master-of-Science semester is anything but structured.
My schedule is full but due to our new, extraordinarily confusing university catalog (Studienordnung) I can't shake the feeling, I'm still missing some important lectures. And I hate lab-work. I'm a theorist not a synthesis-genius like that shy Breaking Bad chemistry teacher. Unfortunately. Otherwise I'd be out there in a veld, cooking meth with a cute hip-hopper XD
By the way, are there any fans of that amazing, dark humored, depressing and simply gorgeous series in my f-list? (Except the one, who is to blame in the first place <3)

Also, after the research work during the Bachelor thesis, it feels a bit weird to play student again. Plus, there are profs from Swiss & Ukraine holding their lectures in German, which sounds a bit wearisome, and German profs lecturing in English - vice versa would be a bit simpler but our administration despises simple decisions.

At least, it's not dull.

Last Tuesday we had a lecture about spectroscopy, especially the Mößbauer-Effect. Let me quote the slides with the synopsis of its discovery:

before 1958:   it could have been discovered earlier. But it wasn't.
1958:               discovered. Nobody cares.
1958-59:          okay, someone cares.. but doesn't believe it.
1959:               fine, everyone believes it. Still doesn't care.
1959-60:          Oh...
1961:               Nobel Prize!

Another Prof, another lecture:

"Here you can see the structure of serotonin: one of the neurotransmitters, responsible for the musculature relaxing, a so called 'happiness hormone'. Interesting fact: When in love, the level of serotonin is quite low. Then again, a person in love is excited not relaxed. Or so I have read."

And he was bloody serious about it. Lately I tend to think I'm going to end like him. What molecule exactly am I missing?
Enough of university, I still have my 'reactiondynamic' homework to procrastinate.

Oh, and John Le Carré is amazing when he writes about Ost- & West-Germany and the Cold War. It's been a while since I enjoyed such a well-plotted old-school Spy Fiction. No unnecessary details, every word is in the right place. And he sure has great observation skills. When he starts to describe a person I almost see a breathing human being even if he missed to mention their hair or eye colour or did so only at the end of the page.

Last but not least, Berlin was amazing, thank you, my dear <3

about 20 Berlin photos )


...Yay. Reaction-dynamics time!


Done!

Aug. 24th, 2011 12:24 am
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I'm done with my Bachelor Thesis.

And the grade's better to be really good, for I had spent 4 month experimenting and writing and negating that overrated thing called private life. (... and almost 90€ (=130$) for printing and binding ò.ó" - 70 pages in color and the pretty darkblue cover XD)

The fact (that I'm done) haven't fully trickled into my head yet. That I'm free. That I don't have to get up at 8 a.m. and start writing, that the presentation was a success (I have forgotten almost the half of all the things I wanted to mention and was still speaking for good 40 minutes~) And that the summer is back, even if it's only for a few days...

But when I came home yesterday, all done and happy and adrenalin-crazy, I just fell asleep... Embarrassing, isn't it? At the age of 24 one should go party, not curling in their bed and just laying still, too tiered to even put another Inkheart CD into the player~ (Tintenherz: a young-adult novel <3)

Then again, a guy who started with his thesis at the same time as me and in the same research group was taken to psychiatry yesterday. He's now in therapy and will stay in hospital for at least 4 weeks. So, I guess, my panic attacks before the presentation were still normal. (And boys are not as stable as girls when it comes to stress.)

Also, I've learned a lot of important and less-important things. The less-important ones are going to stuck in my head forever... For example, while learning python (programming language) I got curious about why on or earth is it called python? (My family name goes back to one certain python species, so I'm a bit touchy-feely when it comes to snakes~) I've never heard of Monthy Python till I've started programming - The show is a bit lame but it sure has it moments. Especially the film "Life of Brain". This one episode is just epic.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQqq3e03EBQ
"You are all individuals!"
Yes, we are all individuals..."
"You are all different!"
"Yes, we are all different..."
"I'm not..."


The joke is really old, I know. Still love it <3
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Oh my, LJ is back?!
I've missed you, honey. Take your time to recover - I won't be around for a week or so and when I'm back I want to see you healthy and proud again <3

As for me... Working on a scientific thesis is a bit like writing a fiction story. First, you have to plot the story-line, do your research, create main characters and figure out the rules of you fiction-world, outline a schema, a plan, write some scenes down, stretch that particular scene, it's crap, you won't do this, you're too dumb, too lazy, too damn stupid for this,.. wait, there is an idea! a new one, it might work, and now another one, that's fine, that's great, I'm a fucking genius! but time, not enough time! don't panic, don't panic, don't... oh. it doesn't work with those rules, you settled first? that's a problem...

Is it just me or is it normal? XD
Well, so far I have worked on the theory-part, on intro and conclusions, and background infos about chemotaxis - the language also our braincells are whispering in while we are not listening~ When I'll start the analysis part, it'll be a lot less poetry in it. A. Lot. Less.

So, Monday next week is the deadline for the first proofreading by Prof. B., and I so far only have approximately the half of my thesis done and LaTeX is like a capricious lover - it likes to be begged. And I sometimes hate the subject, but then I love it again and, yeah, I'm a bit tired but somehow still quite enthusiastic <3 after the big depression last week.

Oh, and a day after my the deadline I have to make a presentation about my research. In English x__x"
Have I already mentioned I haven't even started yet?

Next week will be really... hm, fun?

Just smile, everyone <3





P.S.: But I somehow manged to go to sport once this week and have nearly crashed the mirror with my trainers. I have lost laces a long time ago and we had to practice some sort of Can-can...

Just wanted to warn you never to dance Can-can without shoelaces. It's dangerous.


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Cut for fancy thesis work and my typical university-talk about research, Profs and magic spells <3



click )

Speaking about freaks.
Can't wait to see the next Sherlock BBC series!
It will be hard to take the both guys serious after they announced Sherlock as Smaug, the Dragon, and John as Hobbit.. but I'll try my best not to giggle out lout. After-all, it's a crime-scene<3



(Crime-scenes can be quite obscure in real life... Once in a few years we get those book-voucher for our university-stuff and it's never enough, the books are so bloody expensive I depend on our library for my survival.  But anyway - this year I got myself one great Physical Chemistry textbook (Atkins) and for a few coins change a forensic-investigations-history book as well ♥ So far, I'm quite happy with the decision!)  

To continue with crimes and bullets and so on - I absolutely love shooting <3 It's relaxing and helps to concentrate your mind and take control of the body. It also improves your ego each time you hit the target :D (and I'm pretty good at that) Don't worry I'm speaking of paper targets - my hobby stays clean. The only damage I'm doing is to myself: sore muscles from the heavy rifle.
(And last time there was this old woman (Miss Marple? o.O") with a fancy necklet and a bright summer-dress, all sweet and nice, smiling, telling us some funny stories from the time she was still working ... and then taking her gun out of the handbag and shooting the target down. That was really some creepy old Lady. Respect!)


Well, I guess, the break is over - back to work.

Wish me inspiration for the BA-thesis, dear world :3


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Best compliment ever: "Would you like to do your master thesis in our research group as well?"

<3<3<3

But since it'll take me a few more years, in the meanwhile Prof B. offered me a job as his research assistant in the group! I'm not sure if I can manage both scientific research and studying in the next winter semester (lots of labs x_x"), but I'd love to return in the group for the next summer semester ^.^

(I can't tell you how happy I am right now - I feel honoured for my brains and and my ideas.. and nothing makes me so happy as appreciation, I'm a vain girl <3 Then again, this kind of satisfaction I also feel after writing a worthy story or making a perfect Birthday-present - it's this feeling of "I-have-created-something-new". It's an addiction, I'm afraid, like adrenalin or alcohol, when it's not there, the life seems to be all dull and boring... )

But, well, I shouldn't get too exited. First things first and I still have my bachelor thesis and a few more exams to worry about...
And, no, I won't tell you what grade I got for that damn oral examination. Was I really that bad?... Dear Me, you should really, like really start learning instead of fangirling your bachelor themes, drinking coffee with the doctorands and go shooting [but it's so relaxing!].
(I hope my Prof will never ever ask me for my official papers for I'd die of shame if he ever sees just how bad some of my grades are. Why the hell was I babbling that nonsense in the oral exam? Damn²)

As for the first attempts at image processing, I wrote a small algorithm for this transformation (not that much of a challenge and I'm still fighting against those holes in their scopes ò.ó" )
[click-able photos]

      

... and then composed  those pictures to a video, where you can only see the strokes of their outlines and how they scrabble about, merging, falling apart, pushing dead bodies around - it's kind of fascinating. The creepy kind *_*;

I'd love to show off a bit more, but I'm not sure which results I can already show in public ._." (maybe there'll be a paper afterwards ^^)
I'll talk more detailed, when I'm done? But you can read the basics about the Dicties here. And right now the experimental part is almost over (or so I hope) and I have started analysing the data. So from now on it's just maths. (for example - I never knew that a blur operation is just a matrix applied to a 2D pixel. o_o")

And something completely different before I'm falling asleep at the desk. A quote from a magazine my college lends me:
[sorry, it's German ^^"]

Titanik, S. 40

"Schule des Lebens

Gegen Ende jeder Beziehung werde ich vorwurfsvoll gefragt, warum mir denn verflixt noch mal das Zerstören so einen kindischen Spaß mache, warum sich alles immer bitteschön nur um mich zu drehen habe und warum ich so ein beschissener Egoist sei, dem die Gefühle anderer schnurzegal sind. Schließlich sei ich als Akademiker ja nicht gerade zu blöde, die Regeln des Zusammenlebens zu verstehen, und außerdem alt und erfahren genug, begangene Fehler nicht zwangshaft wiederholen zu müssen. Die Antwort lautetet: Ich trenne eben gerne Erlerntes von Privatem."
(c) Thomas Tonn

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No end to my uni babbling in sight. Sorry? (In August/September it'll be over~)

But someday I'd like to fan-girl about Firefly, does anyone from my f-list watched it? >D


(P.S.: And I need to write that Sherlock BBC / Weiß Kreuz Crossover to get it our of my system...
Time, please!)

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silly Personal massage to somewhere out there: "Whatever it was, that made your sad, my dear friend, don't you ever give up!"

(Arthur is not plugging drugs here. Or at least I hope, he's not... <3)

P.S.:

Jun. 12th, 2011 09:33 pm
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P.S.: For those who aren't interested in microscopes and my incoherent yip-yapping - there are some other pretty photos to love and cherish on an early summer evening: thaess gallery [really like his colours <3]

Also - Organic Chemistry is a very small-minded science (yay, for Physical Chemistry!), right now I'm putting away my notes from learning for the oral examination, picking up some lines here and there and, well, decide for yourself:

"The main problem for the most of the coupling reactions are the homocouplings ..."

Science doesn't have to be politically correct, but still.
And no, I didn't giggle at the examination. I was way too nervous for that.
(Ich hab nicht mal gekichert, als "Sliding Average" in der Datenanalyse-Vorlesung durch Versprechen als Gleitmittel übersetzt wurde.)

I guess for that kind of foolish notes, I shall revive my twitter instead of spamming my LJ [added the link at the side bar]
Maybe next week.
If I occasionally get rid of my current impressions, the next entry might be shorter and easier to bear, right? <3


P.².S.: When I'm lucky, next week-end we'll see that play - 4 Rooms, sounds like funny crack pretty interesting so far ^_^v


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"The thing Jayne loves about zombies is that they're easy [...]
Sure, it'd get boring if they hung around too long – the things are so slow they're like a target for bitty babies holding their very first guns – but sometimes, a man just likes kick back, relax, and shoot holes in a few heads.
"

Can you imagine a better working day then hearing this fabulous audio!fic about Firefly (space cowboys!) and Zombies and malicious politics ... and working on your bachelor thesis in an empty lab, feeling like a king of your own slightly insane empire?~
Half of my research group is on holiday, so the lab's mine to rule! *muhrhr*

If only the computer wasn't telling me in the middle of an experiment that he can't find the microscope anymore. My first thought was, that a cable was detached, so I went down on my knees searching the cable-salad for some loose connections. Half an hour and a shiny tidy floor later I was at the end of my nerves and just shut the whole damn thing down. And then... a miracle! All of sudden the program seems to recognize the microscope again... I hate that thing and it's lunatic sense of humour.
So, if only the whole adjustment wouldn't take so long - the last two weeks I was getting home about 8 p.m. and so damn hungry and tired as if I was pushing heavy rocks up some steeply mountain, the whole work could be quite ... relaxing >D
(Yeah, good bye Taekwondo! My teacher will kill me the next time he'll see me. If he ever see me again.. lucky me, the last weeks had quite a few public holidays in Germany and on those days I only stepped by in the labs for a few hours, curious about the results of the last night...)

But, well, instead of ranting, I'd rather show off a bit - I got an A+ (1,0) for my presentation! ^__^ (shiny!)

Well, I was good, I just never expected being that good. But if they insists, I sure won't complain. In fact, I was feeling rather disappointed after I finished, I had so much more to tell the auditorium, but the questions were all dull (why the hell they asked me about the construction of some boring neutron reactor if they could have seen the very long derivation of the Fourier transformation instead?)

And on Wednesday I had an oral examination in the subject I always hated the most, so I probably should have been learning the last weekend real hard.
Expect that I was visiting that Doctor!girl I met at the shooting club... It was a warm and pleasantly odd evening on her balcony with some strange medicine students [those people are really, really creepy, but funny to chat with >3) and a guy who danced tango like a professional seducer. Just perfect. Finally I found someone who's taller than me! I only hope the next time won't be in a dark hallway but on the dance floor.
(Also, he's an American, reminds me a bit of Crawford >3 are people from oversea really that tall or is it just it just me, who's so lucky?)

... and I still got over with that oral examination. I'm not sure, which grade I'll get, but I had definitely not failed - otherwise the Prof would have told me so; he's someone who really enjoys telling students they failed the topic and have to come in a few weeks to see him again.

Strangely, I don't fell overworked lately. Not too much at least.
Sure, I'm spending all my free time working on that programming stuff, or lingering in the lab, but it's still interesting and I'm feeling so alive.

Also, have found myself great colleagues. And some friends too. And that tall medicine student to dance with <3
(Damn, he was just gorgeous!)

Especially unusual is having people around, who share more than two interests of yours.
You know that one cute girl from the university I was talking about lately?
Not only I can invite her over in my office and we'll chat about Weiß Kreuz over coffee (we're both schwarz fans <3), and science, and Profs. And... the world domination? But we can also go hiking in a beautiful forest nearby or having our Sunday film-nights with lots of Sci-Fi & Sherlock and laughing, and... I never had a friend to share all the interests at once; always had to split them to three or four people to bear, so I'm a bit suspicious - the girl is way too matching me to be real. (Well, not too perfect after all - we have totally different eating habits. How on earth doesn't she like spinach and paprika and aubergine? o.o) But It's a great feeling finding a friend like this.
... Oh, and the guys at the labs are quite interesting as colleagues too - and yes, I do find that quite abnormal unusual.
(btw, except from one exchange-student from China - I'm the only girl there. Now, that's fine with me <3)

Back to my actual thesis (I know, my f-list is probably already sick and tired of hearing about amoebas and so... but I'm afraid it won't change till I'm done with this subject ^^" Can you bear with it till August?)

Wanna see some creepy, bacteria contaminated data? <3



And my cool microscope with it's golden electrode? ^.^
(the poor cam quality doesn't do him justice, I'm afraid)



a few more shiny close up's )

Just one more thing...
On Wednesday-evening I had a quite revealing conversation with some of the technical assistants from the labs. She asked me if could turned off one of the apparatus downstairs for it's her finishing time and she don't want to wait a few more hours for the machine to cool down.

me: Sure, no problem! I'll stay here till late anyway~ *sigh*
TA: As usual, um? You sure want to make the best of you. Me on the other hand... Well, I already have my house, kids and a dog, but when you want a career, you sure have to stay till late and work hard. I'd rather have my family.

Some of those old women who likes to patronized you. Fine and all. But I just can't agree with her.

Sure, I want success, and, yeah, I deserve acknowledgement (who don't?) and I sure as hell want to make a Doctor Degree afterwards, but someday I want my house as well. And a child and a partner whom I can trust (expert for the dog. I'm a cat type <3) and free time to travel around the world and going out with friends and ... is it the bitter really, that you can't have everything you want, or is it just her way to excuse herself?

Then on the other hand, I was sure willing to turn the apparatus off since I spend the last few weeks almost living there.
So may be she has a point after all.

But.
We have those two Profs in our working group. A. & B. (it's their real names shortcuts <3)
And did I ever mention how really handsome my Prof. A. is? And how absolutely sweet his wife is? She taught us Biomolecular Chemistry in the fifth semester...And how cute the two little boys of the Prof. B are?

So, yeah, they don't look like they are suffering from loneliness. I guess, I'll manage it too. Somehow.



And if not... well, my amobeas still love me <3
('cause I have the glucose which makes them happy and the caffeine which calm them down~ xD)

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stage fright
-> NOUN: Acute nervousness associated with performing or speaking before an audience.


Never thought it would affect me.
I mean, all I have to do is to stand up and explain (loud and clear) a highly complex theme in front of round hundred students and a dozen of  Professors...

And as if it's not enough, my own Prof asked me, if I can play the chairman for the first session. ("Vorsitzender" sounds even more ridiculous.)
What on earth made him think, I'm the right person for that job? Standing there, smiling, call the lecturer on the speakers desk and cut them off, when they talked over their limits. I'll need a megaphone to make myself noticeable. (can you just push somebody down if they talked too long? And how am I suppose to moderate an obligatory after-presentation discussion, if I hate public debates?)

Oh, yes, the reason why it have to be me, is that the only another person in the run had a broken nose and will be operated tomorrow noon.
(can somebody punch me please? I'll try not to fight back. Not too hard at least.)

Also, shall I wear a tie?
Or a suit?
Or just drink a big glass of valerian before it starts?

(whenever I'm nervous or dead-tiered or just feeling uncomfortable around a person - my accent gets really bad. Otherwise it's almost not present but in those cases it sounds just... gross. Strangely, it never happens when I'm drunk - I guess, it's just a cliché after all.)

Also, it's impossible to explain the basics of "X-Ray and Neutron Scattering Analysis Methods" in just a half of an hour. The theme is huge and amazing and combines quantum mechanics as well as theoretical physics - after being engaged in the theme for weeks, I can't help but love it. And now I'll have to simplify it all in some dumb overview presentation. Damn.
(It's just awesome!)

So, the week-end of doom starts tomorrow and will go till Monday, the 31th May.
My turn will be on Sunday, at 11:30 a.m.
Wish me luck <3

By the way, it also means, I have to spend the next weekend in the labs in order to catch up with my thesis plans.
It's not like I'm a workaholic or something but.
Research is not a standardized nine-to-five job: I can take myself a day free, if my amobeas suddenly die from... actually, I still don't know why it happened that day. But on the other hand... Well, for example, yesterday:

(In the following the pretty Chef-girl who was so kind to show around the lab denotes as E.)

E.: - You measurement's time starts about 6 p.m. today, okay? Now that you can work alone, the experiment should take you only a few hours.
Me: - Um, on Wednesdays I'm normally at Taekwando. .. but it's fine. Really! I can pass a training or two, bachelor thesis is sure more important than that ^_^
E:  - Oh no, dear! You shouldn't sacrifize your hobbies, those are very important for the right mental balance.
Me: *beams with joy*
E: - Now that you have a key of your own, you can open the labs anytime. So, why won't you just come back right after your training? At 8 p.m.? In fact, that would be even better, so I can try one more measurement myself, before you'll need the microscope. Deal?
Me.... yeah, right. Till 8 p.m. then.

Will it be that despicable to wish my amoebas a few more casual death', so that I can enjoy a bit of the spring?
Hm.

P.S.: to make this nervous entry looks a bit less nerdy - I've started watching Firefly and it's absolutely great. If you like SciFi or nor - just go and watch it. Now.
Reminds me strongly of Cowboy Bebob. Especially, because of their cool but somehow really creepy crew. Oh, and because of the sarcasm of the show >3

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I'm still alive. Kind of. Just a bit busy.

With stuff like:

Learning how to work in a sterilized lab. How to handle an atomic force microscopy without breaking this hideously expensive, bitching princess thing.
Not going mad at the amebae or at my stupid self for forgetting to put the lid over the gold electrode for the night. You see, the most of my measurements goes over night, so if the lid is not there, the solution, where my pets are swimming around peacefully, will vaporises after just a few hours and they will painfully suffocate... while - for the sake of the experiment (!) - they are supposed to starve to death. Um.

Learning python. One of the most simple programming language. Or so I was told. Um.
Then again, I can use the few techniques I've already learned for ImageProcessing to automatise trimming my holiday photos. If I ever have holidays again.
(by the way, in UNIX shell programming there some really elegant rules: for example, you start a command with an if and you have to end your order with an fi. Also, once a program cowardly refused to obey. And yes, I'm quoting it word-for-word. Linux is sure crazy. And fun <3)

Oh, and I've managed that double-kick from Taekwando <3 And had my first shooting without a supporting "pillar" under my gun. Never thought that rifle was so damn heavy... I mean, I really have some muscles, I've trained with shinai for some years, I've done exercises with free weights - not regularly but still... I just can't stay still enough to take accurate aim. That's annoying! Especially since with that pillar I'm really, really good. Bother!
Well, I'll have to improve then <3

Oh, and I have to find time to sleep as well.
But not before I'll take a final look at my presentation for the next weekend. My turn is next Sunday, at 11 a.m. Yes, we're are just that hardcore in Göttingen.

And that one dear fellow from my university will convince me into an audio!WK-fanfiction. Damn her and her great ideas.

As for the shadow sides.... I'm consistently tiered. Physical and somehow emotional too. And I have that troublesome feeling of achieving nothing at all. Just struggling. Struggling and getting even more exhausted. I'm quite a patient type, but this time I want to see some results. Like. NOW.
Um...

So, in order to manage that current crazy schedule a bit better, I guess, I'll have to make my internet presence even shorter ._."
Don't forget about me, dears. Because I sure won't!
I'll be back (c)
<3

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P.S. Greeting back for kuru :3

P².S: Oh, and to explain the title of the entry: whenever the things gets too stressed for me, I tend to miss the deadline for returning the books back to the city library. This time I own them exactly 13 € for being such an idiot. Come to think of it - not my worst score.


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Contrary to my previous plans I had to spend the weekend at the university, looking after my experiment which wasn't going exactly how I've expected it to go... So much for enjoying the nice weather~

All things considered the days are so frenetic lately, I'm slightly afraid, I bite off a bit more than I can chew...
Bun then again, it's spring, I'm young and the whole world is at my feet, so why the hell not?

For example I have a weak spot for all kind of weapons, but after a year full of kendo, I wanted to try out something completely different... So, at Thursday I was at an air rifle shooting - the every first time I hold a gun in my hand, not a shotgun though.
And it was an amazing feeling, staying there, holding still, full concentration and for a few seconds the world stays still ... and then - a fast sound and a tiny hole in the target. After the first attempts I hit the bull's eye quite frequently <3



... Despite my poor eyesight.
But, well, you don't have to boast 0.0 dioptres to take an accurate aim. The decisive factor is the ability to stand still. (After the first 15 shoots I had to make a pause though - to focus on a mean small point in a 10 meters distance isn't that healthy for weak eyes either.)
I'll see if my enthusiasm will hold for a few more days and if I'm as capable with small calibre guns as I'm with rifles than maybe I'll join the shooting association~ (this one: Schützenverein)

Even though, the members are all looking quite cliché-like so far. You know, so .. typical old school German. Old geezers with beer bellies, doing nothing but talking about how much better it was in the past.....
The only other Newbie was a girl of my age <3 (the new generation comes!) She studies medicine and on Wednesdays, when I have my Taekwando lessons, she's doing Boxing! I've seen her trough the glass doors of the next room in our martial arts centre~  It was quite a remarkable coincidence, meeting her there. So, afterwards we had to clink our coffee glasses at the strange twist of fate. And, gosh, we have talked till the very late hour, which is absolutely unusual for me...  I'm still a bit suspicious of fate. A few years ago I had complained, all the awesome people I know are living awful far away from me and now - there are people here, at my place, just a stone's throw away, whom I can talk to. About each and every topic I want; from SciFi and chemistry and theatre and politics to Sherlock BBC or Weiß Kreuz, or yaoi & yuri and travelling plans and crazy novel plots.
Life is quite awesome right now.
(which doesn't mean, I don't miss my far-away friends as well ._." But I've already planed to visit my dearest ones this year! ò.ó. So, Prague & Berlin are definitely included. And we'll see, if I can afford a non-European journey someday <3)

And a small university related note as well:
The computer applications lectures by my prof (my because it's his study group where I'm working at my thesis) are a bit complicated for I'm not really a computer freak, but at least the prof seems to be quite a funny fellow. Lucky me, he only looks like Dr. House (without a crutch) but his character is much nicer (and a bit awkward. Tight black jeans presents just a perfect contrast for the nasty habit of wiping the chalk from his hands on his pants. It always looks like somebody had grabbed his ass....) But I've learned a lot about python, C++, Linux & Co., so if after this evening I suddenly disappear from the Internet, it means, the experiment of changing my Windows to Linux went wrong and I occidentally killed my notebook....

Oh, and a few more photos, since you had to listen to me talking for a while now.. just lay back and click on the cut to enjoy the non-verbal photo-communication about Science Slam and the current girlish spring fashion presented by the silly Me <3


(c) ThOP
Stage @ ThOP )

~

massive self-aggrandisement <3 )
Let me act childish, I'm already terrified of how difficult the next two month' will be - I'm excited and anxious at the same time. How am I suppose to learn properly when I'm so high?~

P.S.: I shall post a few Lisbon photos within the next weeks... because one good friend pointed out to me, that when it comes to the memories of good times, even bad photos are better then none <3

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Some people accuse me of being a very cold and an insensible person. That's not true! I can get quite emotional. For example - I'm thrilled by the Russell-Paradox >3

Russell starts his reasoning with teaspoons. The collection of teaspoons clearly doesn't include itself as an element (you have to be a teaspoon to belong to this highly specified set of elements) But what about the complementary collection with elements defined as "not a teaspoon"? Since the set of not-a-teaspoon items is not a teaspoon, this set does contain itself as it's member.

Now, the next step: Let' us create the set S of all the sets that are not members of themselves. Will it contain itself?
Obviously, it can't. It would be against the rules, the definition is not to be a member of the set.
But when it's not a member of the set, it falls in the category of sets that doesn't contain themselves as an element and therefore it is the member of the set S.
You see - whether it is a member or not, we can't avoid the contradiction. The paradox.

Love those things <3

But, well, to prevent further accusations, I should post something really romantic and sweet right now  :3 Just as the [P.S.] to my former sms:
here comes the sun~
(c)


[updates]

University: Just one exam left! The problem is: I have almost 2 weeks to prepare which means... sure as hell, I'll get distracted and fuck it up. Focus, my dear! Concentrate! 

Job: A few hours ago I signed my employment contract, I was talking about in the previous entries. Since it's only a part-time job, it's bringing me just ~125 €/month (=174 US$) but the paper work I had to fill today assumed I was signing for some secret government position o_O" article, paragraph, clause - the poor secretary had to read it out loud. So, now I've confirmed by the oath that I won't give away any state or private secrets. Now, I'm really curios what's coming up to me XD

Culture:  I spend the whole weekend at my parent's, so we finally visited Hameln! The town where the Pied Piper of Hamelin walked abroad >3 The puppet theatre show was pure magic, I truly regretted, I left my camera home =/

Cinema: "Unknown Identity" - I'm tempted to say, that the best thing was the company the locations where the picture was filmed - in Berlin ♥ But I have to admit, the true Identity of the protagonist was fun to discover >3 (scores: 8/10)

Books: I found an old SciFi-novel written by Belyayev! *_*;; Just as cool as Jules Verne's stories! As a child I was heavenly in love with his books - dreaming about travelling, discovering new islands and creatures, and experiencing all the cool adventures :3

Or, and, of cause the fandom-meme, sponsored by my dear f-list >3

fandom love-life XD )
__________


[@Japan. Not praying but thinking about, feeling with and hoping the best.]


PS.: I'm really quite sleepy right now, so I'll beta read this post tomorrow, not now @.@
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The week was long and is virtually over now, and since it's approximately Friday, we can almost see it as a weekend, ergo - I'm free to post nonsense :D

My Sherlock obsession is quite a persistent one and the city library had the book with the original illustrations [squee!] and I have to admit that BBC has done their homework really well.

Chemistry was so primitive, logical, simple those days~




But the spirit of science hadn't changed much :D





(all the sceencaps were made by great aithine)

Talking about the progress. One of the free lectures in this year's Science Festival was about the revolutions in Chemestry  "Drug Development in the 21st century" hold by Prof. MD. DSc. Aaron Ciechanover (an Israeli biologist and Nobel laureate in Chemistry) and I still can't decide if I found it interesting or boring. It was more a philosophy discussion than scientific presentation and I did agree with him at the most points, but there were no thrill in it, nothing new to chew or to be in doubt about. It was more like a historical overview of the three eras:

1) the era of serendipity. Accidental, yet, bloody lucky circumstances leads to the discovering of aspirin & penicillin. The blockbusters of drugs.
2) the second era of the brute force. Targeted screening consumes billions of dollars and is quite a stupid way of research based only on the idea, that if we screen billions of billions of billions compounds, than maybe one of them will be useful. Good, it brought us statins, so may be I'm a bit overreacting...
3) the third one we have now - the pyjama medicine, when the therapy for the breast cancer works on one person and only does damage to another.

So, (he told) there is a new, up-coming idea of personalized medicine - drugs based on the DNA.
And now it's finally getting to a controversial issue - how long will it take till people will demand to make their DNA public? And I'm not only talking about the assurance companies.

Let's talk about romantic then. All those "emotional things". When you look for a partner it's all about love and affection, but no one will deny the instinctual searching for a person with nearly the same intelligent, health, education and culture level. More or less consciously. (those are not just my own thoughts - the statistic insists on it)
And who won't know if their future partner really is healthy or is carrying a hidden handicap in them? Can you overcome the temptation to peek up?

I'm quite sure, I couldn't.



But that's enough for now, I'm sleepy and still a bit sore from the flu, so let's move on to the funny part. Weekend pic-spam <3


cut for a few more bad quality photos & screencaps )


And my favourite illustration to complete the homage:




P.S.: Nyx, this one is for you: Please, confirm you are human >3  
I really do exist )

P².S.: Oh, my summary was redundant, there is already other one on the internet xlab-goettingen

P³.S.: Also, I'm the dorm representative now :) The elections were yesterday - and now it's official! There were two opposing parties and three candidates. Nobody knew a thing about me, but people rather choose a third option then their enemy :D And I'm quite good at putting lipstick on the pig without lying. I'm just didn't tell them about my bad sides.
Means, I can stay in the student dorm for another year! :D

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