[delocalized mind]

My microwave exploded, I have a sore throat and some fever, and the first Master-of-Science semester is anything but structured.
My schedule is full but due to our new, extraordinarily confusing university catalog (Studienordnung) I can't shake the feeling, I'm still missing some important lectures. And I hate lab-work. I'm a theorist not a synthesis-genius like that shy Breaking Bad chemistry teacher. Unfortunately. Otherwise I'd be out there in a veld, cooking meth with a cute hip-hopper XD
By the way, are there any fans of that amazing, dark humored, depressing and simply gorgeous series in my f-list? (Except the one, who is to blame in the first place <3)

Also, after the research work during the Bachelor thesis, it feels a bit weird to play student again. Plus, there are profs from Swiss & Ukraine holding their lectures in German, which sounds a bit wearisome, and German profs lecturing in English - vice versa would be a bit simpler but our administration despises simple decisions.

At least, it's not dull.

Last Tuesday we had a lecture about spectroscopy, especially the Mößbauer-Effect. Let me quote the slides with the synopsis of its discovery:

before 1958:   it could have been discovered earlier. But it wasn't.
1958:               discovered. Nobody cares.
1958-59:          okay, someone cares.. but doesn't believe it.
1959:               fine, everyone believes it. Still doesn't care.
1959-60:          Oh...
1961:               Nobel Prize!

Another Prof, another lecture:

"Here you can see the structure of serotonin: one of the neurotransmitters, responsible for the musculature relaxing, a so called 'happiness hormone'. Interesting fact: When in love, the level of serotonin is quite low. Then again, a person in love is excited not relaxed. Or so I have read."

And he was bloody serious about it. Lately I tend to think I'm going to end like him. What molecule exactly am I missing?
Enough of university, I still have my 'reactiondynamic' homework to procrastinate.

Oh, and John Le Carré is amazing when he writes about Ost- & West-Germany and the Cold War. It's been a while since I enjoyed such a well-plotted old-school Spy Fiction. No unnecessary details, every word is in the right place. And he sure has great observation skills. When he starts to describe a person I almost see a breathing human being even if he missed to mention their hair or eye colour or did so only at the end of the page.

Last but not least, Berlin was amazing, thank you, my dear <3

( about 20 Berlin photos )


...Yay. Reaction-dynamics time!

Today morning was one of the strangest wake-ups I ever had - two police officers asked me about the last time I have seen my next door neighbour. I was still a bit drowsy and they were so serious, all handcuffs and uniforms, and that guy next door went missing and ... well, let's hope, he escaped to South America and is not laying somewhere in Göttingen, six foot underneath ._."
Since I'm the resident advisor (Flursprecher), later that day I had to open his rooms for the parents to take his stuff and .. it was really awkward seeing them ._."

So, I just felt like telling you, I'm alright. Things got a bit hectic here (oh, that's unusual ... not -.-"), so I cut on communication a bit, sorry for that :/
Also, my Dad's vacation for this "summer" has been approved (that was really unexpected), which means, I'll take time off too~ I've really missed my Dad, his humour is... unique. I guess, we'll visit some cities around Germany or just get off to the forest if the weather stays just so fine and sunny :)

Marienburg Castle - Hanover
(last week, (c) me)


( wanna see some more? )

P.S. : Did I mention how much I love my shooting club? Even if the old guys can't stop telling me how awesome they were, when they were young... But since they let me learning from them for free, let me borrow their airguns and are actually really teaching me from time to time, I'm fine with that :)

P.P.S.: You are really lucky, dear f-lsit, if I wasn't so tiered this week, I would definitely go on complaining about the Pope's visit in Bundestag and the evil plans of Microsoft Windows 8 to knock Linux & Open Source out. Damn you, Big Brother!

Actually, the last entry is a bit out-of-date. I started it a week ago, to be precise... but right after I wrote about the "All individuals"-vid, my Internet died and I perceived it as a Sign.

Also, the was an important change in my mood. And some fabulous thunderstorms the next few days.

And my shooting club (I've started with an air gun instead of a rifle!). And sports (that light air gun grows quite heavy in your hand after an hour of shooting -> I need some muscles ò.ó By the way, I've seen two of our Profs in the gum, as well. It's really awkward to see someone who you've only seen all buttoned-up, now wearing only a pair of shorts and a sweat soaked shirt...) And Theater (4 Rooms!). And some lazy afternoons with a book, a pumpkin backed with cheese and a glass of cold-cold milk.
Not to forget the weekend I've spent at my parents. Including a 5-hours-long walk to the sea nearby :3

Altogether, I'm starting to really enjoy my life right now. There is this one last exam, though. Like a dark cloud on the flawless blue sky... But it's at the end of September, so I decided to spend the first two weeks somewhere else :D
Means -> Starting from tomorrow I'll go on holiday!

Good-bye, my dears ♥
See you after 8th September.

P.S.:
The mystical metamorphosis from a tiered geek with dark circles around the eyes to bright and shiny Bacheloretta <3



I guess, I just needed a doctor. (Attention: Sherlock BBC & Doctor Who reference... and, damn, that idea about fem!Moriarty cosplay just wont disappear! Mycroft's to blame. Sure.)

P.P.S. In the last three weeks I've already unlearnd to use the Internet or to write proper entries. I wonder if I'll still remember my LJ-password after two more weeks aft o.O" I hope so, for there are a lot of lab photos at my cam <3

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Finally, the exams are over and I can fully enjoy my holiday, if only for a little while - at least, we're going to Lisbon for 4 days, so the upcoming week can't be that bad :)
(The was some serious miscalculating though. I couldn't have imagined having that big trouble with the BAfÖG-department, which makes me reconsider all my future "spending money & savoring the pleasant moments" plans. Expect for Prague. If there is nothing in your way, dear? :3)

The last week brought me not only a lot of learning for the last exam but also a brief glimpse at my future bachelor thesis work place~ I've got a lot of papers to read and internalise: about the amoebae's growing and starvation, about the image analysis (on the example of cancer cells counting) about the resistance-time graphs and the recording gadget constructions... does it sound like chemistry to you? And that's why I love it - it unifies physics, chemistry and biology in a cheerful threesome <3 As a part from from my f-list already knows, I've started studying physics first and I still see him as my ex-boyfriend (looking something like Sherlock from that British mini-series click, the behavior is the same. And, unfortunately, I wasn't able to deal with that odd and unintended cruel bastard for too long. But I'm not over him, yet, my thesis consist up to 80 % of his area of competence. The rest is Biology, who by the way in my head!canon is a cute blond and a bit naive girl. But since I'm not into blonde's, I have an established relationship with Chemistry - an amusing, mysterious brunette. Sometimes she is a bitch though)

Sorry, I'm talking weird. Sleep is a symptom of caffeine deprivation but when you get neither sleep nor coffee the symptoms are just horrifying >D

Oh, and a small cultural note till I'll rush away, packing and flying to a beautiful city (where by the way also was an earthquake of the scale 9. Back in 1755):
Gattaca - the most realistic SciFi movie according to the NASA. (and apart from the strong message of the plot, the actors are absolutely convincing. It occurs to me that Judy Law will never personalize any other character that perfect as one certain spoiled brat - Bosie, but since Jerome is such a princess himself it's only appropriate~) thanks @Nyx for the great recommendation! (and I'm still waiting for that book you promised me >3)

More infos when I'm back in Göttingen (somewhere around the 11th of April)

Don't get bored and keep on dreaming: http://soytuaire.labuat.com/ (not only the song is beautiful, it's also a  very meditative occupational therapy~)

[EDIT]: There really are some grave reasons why I'm trying to avoid posting after midnight. The entry sounded perfectly fine in my head but when it comes to writing the thoughts down I stumble over phrases, different lines of thoughts and inappropriate images. And it makes it hard to concentrate on the most important issues.
Anyway, for now I'm just corrected my opinion on Gattaca a bit, but when I'm back, I'm gonna fangirl about Beljaew A LOT. Beware of some old SciFi novels upcoming! [heart]

<daydreaming> PS: When someday I'm rich, we'll travel around the world together. At least sometimes? And we'll drink coffee and watching beautiful sunset burning out above the sea~ </daydreaming>

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What does a workaholic do when he's back home from great holidays? Right - he works overtime. The anoganic synthesis labs started a few weeks ago and since it's almost over, I'm up to my eyes in project reports. It's a love-hate relationship [♥]
(we even have poetry among the lines - "Continue to stir the reaction until all of the AgNO3 has reacted to form a fluffy white precipitate." (c) Robert A. Stockland Jr. and others)

Today should be the last day of the practical curses but the plan is a bit out of date now - there was a little accident this morning. So the rooms are closed till... Well, nobody knows when it's possible again to enter the laboratory... and not to pass out the very second. It stinks to high heaven. And this time it wasn't me, who is to blame. (it's enough that I had nearly build a bomb last week. Incidental. I just forgot to retrofit a ventilation before heating up. I'm sorry?)

And it's always great to have some breaks once a while, whether it's an exhilarating distraction or not:

By the way, I'm still jobbing at the inter-cultural centre as the tutor for chemistry. So I have to show the exchange students around - it only takes a week during the semester break but each time after talking to them I'm plagued by an incurable yearning for distant places. I want my Erasmus-year too! But, well, maybe during the master-program?
And it's funny to learn the differences between the countries: Here we only have two tries to pass an examination, afterwards you have an oral with the prof. Then maybe you're allowed to try the very last time. You fail this too and it's over - you never may study chemistry again. Well, at least not in Germany.
In Italy you may try as often as you want, if only you pay. And the UK-student only said, he never failed that much to find out, what happens XD

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And to mention some anime-fun too:
Two weeks ago I had the pleasure to welcome the Lord of Hell at my place... and she has the most fascinating eyes I've ever seen @.@" Some silly US-UK-posing follows: (it's so weird not to be the one wearing glasses xD)



We can act IC. Kind of. The Pissed and The Happy One.



And at the evening I also had a cocktail called: "The Pirate" >3
(Brat, why didn't you remind me of teaching you proper 'Poker'? Now you have to visit me once more! ♥ )
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And since I promised to report about holidays a while ago, I can mix the dull labs-picspam with candy-striped holiday photos.. And wax lyrical about the sea. And the both lighthouses guarding our bay... dreaming is the only way not to drawn in the sea of the despair, 'cause it's raining and raining and raining all the day long. And the weather forecast promise rain for the whole week. Great.

Laboratory vs. Holidays memories.




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And now the colourful Holiday-part for the comparison:



( cklic-click once again for all the colourful dreams please )

Loki on the rocks. Ha ha.




Okay, it's useless try to force two weeks of exhausting sweet nothing into one single post, so let's call it a day now.

(away for the last dinner - the Hokkaido pumpkin topped with melted cheese~ The autumn won't last long and afterwards it'll be no pumpkin for me, so it's okay eating that late, isn't it?..)



EDIT: A few are corrected but the embarrassments just doesn't end... beware: most mistakes are sill remain covert ^^"

Attention, please: I'm gone for a few weeks now :) my long-awaited seaside-holidays stars tomorrow and I'm going to swim out till I reach the horizon ;D

(also spending time with my parents, books, music, dancing, cocktails, conversation, mountain hike, climbing, sightseeing, dreaming, writing... and I still need to pack. Why do I always pack at the very last moment? I know, I'll forget something. As sure as death and taxes. But well, first I have to catch the train to Hanover, tomorrow morning - the air-plane... )

See you :)

→ 11.08 - 27.08 AWAY

Während meiner Madrid-Reise bin ich nicht nur durch die kalten Säle der Ritterschlösser und triste Kerker der Monasterien gewandert, sondern habe mir auch den einen oder anderen Schluck der stickigen Museenluft gegönnt. Zwar hilft es nicht gegen Erkältungen, aber sorgt doch für ein warmes, wolliges Gefühl, das einem in der Nacht herrliche Alpträume beschert.

Vor einiger Zeit war meiner Mutter absolut Napoléon-Epoche geflasht. Doch ihre never-ending love bleibt trotzdem Francisco de Goya (dessen skurrile Biographie mir persönlich mehr zusagt als das pathetische Schicksal Napoléons XD). Als Hintergrundinfo sei nur gesagt, dass der gute Maler nicht nur psychologisch treffliche Porträts des königlichen Hofes angefertigt, sondern in seiner Freizeit auch ein paar ketzerische Bildnisse geschafft hatte, die ihm sehr-sehr ernste Schwierigkeiten mit der berüchtigten spanischen Inquisition eingebracht hatten. Alleine die Gunst der Königen (die und nicht ihr Mann wirklich die Hose anhatte...) haben ihn vom Feuer gerettet. Doch statt vorsichtiger zu wirken, werden seine Werke mit der Zeit immer düsterer und zynischer (.. könnte aber auch an seiner Syphilis liegen - es ist ja nicht so, dass die damit verbundene Gehirnaffektion was ganz neues in der Künstelrwelt wäre <.<"). Doch was auch immer ihn inspiriert hatte, der Saal mit 'pinturas negras' ist einer meiner Lieblinge in Prada gewesen. Vor allem das:



http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atropos

Es gab 3 Parzen. Eben so 3 Moiren. Und 3 Nornen. 3 ist überhaupt eine beliebte Zahl in der Mythologie, vom finsteren Heidentum bis zum leuchtenden Christentum alle mögen die 3. Bei Goya sind es 4 - die eine, die er frei dazu erdichtet hat, ist die, die lacht. Der prüde Audio-guide hatte sie politisch-korrekt als "die, die das Leben belächelt" bezeichnet. Sieht einer von euch in diesem hässlichen, höhnischen Grinsen ein liebenswertes Lächeln? Also ich nicht.

Wozu das ganze nun? Ich könnte auch von einem anderen Lieblingsbild erzählen; einem, das interessanter und fröhlicher wäre. Und hübscher, vergessen wir die Ästhetik nicht. Und berühmter, wer mag's schon nicht, mit seiner Bildung zu glänzen?

Warum das Bild also?

Ganz einfach. Ich würde auch gerne lachen. Syphilis hin oder her, aber es ist eine durchaus gesunde Einstellung - über das Leben zu lachen

Weil alles wieder auf dem Kopf steht. Aber ich mag's trotzdem. Sowohl Goyas Wahnsinn als auch mein Leben.
Auf das Lachen, auf die bösartige Ironie und das Universum! >3

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PS: Das Museum der Reine Sophia war dagegen etwas zu modern für meinen Geschmack, doch wo wir gerade von absurden Gruselgeschichten sprechen, wollte ich auch kurz Dalí erwähnen, er wäre sonst sicher unglücklich, hätten wir ihn in dieser Kategorie vergessen~ http://library.flawlesslogic.com/enigma_l.htm


P²S: Das Leben ist wirklich zum lachen, ich bin endlich darauf gekommen, woran mich der Titel des Bildes von Goya erinnert. An Atropin xDD de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atropin Die Toxi-vorlesung lässt wieder grüßen. Soll das ein Wink der Schicksalsgöttin sein? Hallo, du hübsche Frau Ich sollte wirklich besser für die "Biomolekülare Chemie" im April lernen. Und ich meine wirklich lernen und nicht nur davon schreiben, dass ich es vielleicht mal tun sollte. So lernen wie lernen..... verdammt, ich sollte irgendwas gegen die Faulheit erfinden. (Lobotomie oder Hirntransplantation klingen auch beide sehr verlockend)


P³S: Mal weg von all der platten Pseudo-Philosphie - ich bin momentan bei meinen Eltern (sie weigern sich mich nachhause zu schicken, ehe ich ein bissel gesünder werde.. kann sich nur um Jahre handel XD). Also bei ihnen am Rechner wirkt mein LJ-Layout sehr... verzerrt o.O" Übers ganze Bildschirm und nicht so schlank und schön, wie es immer vom meinem Laptop aus ausgesehen hat.
Sieht es bei auch so breit aus? Also die Spalte, in der meine Einträge erscheinen? o_O" Wenn ja, schreit bitte, ich muss es irgendwie korrigieren. Irgendwie o__o"


Museum der Reine Sophia, Madrid, Frühling (haha....) 2010, die unschuldigen Museenbesuchern von mir überrascht >3

Away till 08.03. ► Madrid

→ Wishing you well, my dear fellers >3

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click for the full view (c) photo by myself, Teneriffa, summer 2009

Ich gelobe feierlich, mich nie mehr über das deutsche Wetter zu beschweren, falls es mir mal wieder viel zu trübselig und kalt erscheint. Denn heute war es sonnig und warm und der kühle angenehme Wind perfektionierte das Gesamtbild zu einem Traumtag. Und natürlich bin ich in der Mittagsessenpause zum lernen nach draußen gegangen, welchen Sinn hätte es denn auch gehabt, in der Mensa zu bleiben, wenn es in Schatten des kleinen Wäldchens nebenan so viel schöner ist? Und natürlich waren alle Lernunterlagen fein säuberlich sortiert auch mitgekommen und genau in so einem ordentlichen Stapel verharrten sie auch die gesamte zweistündigen Mittagspause. Da war dieses eine Buch, das ich vorher  nur noch ganz kurz zu Ende lesen wollte... (übrigens, wäre ich ein ehrenhafter Gentleman müsste ich das Buch jetzt heiraten kaufen, ich habe über eine halbe Seite zufällig Kaffee verschüttet und es befleckt .__."") Dann musste man über den Inhalt nachsinnen - ein Nachsinnen, welches so tief ging, das ich auf das Unbewusste Denken umschalten musste.... Na und, dass ich eingeschlafen bin, das ist gesund! >_<"
Allerdings musste in der folgenden Nachmittagssemenarstunde ganz viel improvisieren werden. Damn.
Da haben wir es, schönes Wetter ist schuld daran, dass ich mich irgendwie so entspannt und glücklich fühle, wie selten jemals... oder vielleicht sollte ich einfach mehr schlafen - wie immer XD

Daher werde ich die Unmengen an Fotos erst am WE sortieren. Und mich auf die Klausur vorbereiten. Und aufräumen. Und zum Bücherverkauf in der Stadtsbücherei fahren. Und vielleicht mal mit Cosplay anfangen.Und unbedingt die Sommerchallenges schreiben. Und eine Zeitmachine erfinden um das alles zu schaffen.


PS: Was sagt es über unser Zeitalter aus, wenn ein Kerl, der zwei Plätze weiter vor mir sitzt, mir eine E-Mail schickt um zu fragen, ob ich mit ihm ins Kino möchte? Und anschließend gibt's virtuellen Cafe und Cybersex (definitiv nicht mit ihm, ich bin eine Größefetechististen, Mädchen dürfen kleiner sein als ich, Kerle nicht :D)  Irgendwie finde ich es trotz meiner Liebe zu bloggen und virtueller Kommunikation ein wenig irritierend <.<"


P²S: Der eigentliche Sinn dieses sinnfreien Eintrages besteht darin, in mir ein kaum bis gar nicht vorhandenes Gewissen wach zu rütteln, damit ich endlich die dringend-to-do Liste abarbeite. Argz, ich will zurück in Urlaub <.<"

P³S: Heute im Sportzentrum zufällig unserem Karatesensei über den Weg gelaufen - der neue Kurs fängt erst Mitte Oktober mit offiziellem Vorlesungsbeginn an. Bu, und ich hatte mich schon gefreut, aufkommende Agressionen friedlich ablassen zu können  =/

Und trotzdem ein paar neue Bilder ^^"
 

( picspam XS )